yellow!

just wanna hi. :)

ay. by the way.
first time namin nagdalo sa bagong KH kanina. :D
hehehe..
lapit lang sa min ever. ^_^
iba ang feeling.
can't explain.

tsaka alam mo ba, sama pa din ng pakiramdam ko..
huhu.. di ako makahinga kapag sunod sunod ang kahol ko ever.
as in! nauubusan ako ng hangin.
tas di man lang natatanggal yung kati. :(

huhuhu.. sana mawala na to.
yung sakit ng lalamunan. yung kati.
isama na din yung lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman ko.
huhuhuhu..

*i wanna screeeeeeeaaaaammmm..* ='(

huhuhuhu..

and I wanna cry..
cry as much as I can.. ='(

*sob*

11th Baptism Anniversary! ^_^

Hi!

It's my 11th year of baptism anniversary today! ^_^
11 years of being a Jehovah's Witness.. ;))

I am happy to still be here in the organization. (I think it would really kill me if I lose this..)
I could not have completely fulfilled my Christian obligations all through those years, but I did know for myself that I tried to stay and fight for my relationship with Jehovah God. (against my own weaknesses, pressures of the world, etc.)
I know I could do better, and as I prayed to Him last night, I did promise that I will try better and make up with what my drawbacks as His servant.

Throughout those 11 years of being a JW, I never felt that He left me.
Though there were times that I felt like there was a wall between us because of my own stupidity, Jehovah God is always there reaching out for me.
He always prove to be there when I need Him.
Ramdam na ramdam ko yun when things are so heavy.
I felt His loving care and empathy which made Him appease my hurting self.

Given all my sins, I felt like I am not worthy of any kindness from Him.
But still, He never retracted His hands from me.
Always being there, ready to give me support and guidance on what to do.

He is really so kind.
People must know about Him.
He is a truly loving God worthy of all the praises and glory.

He is so mild-tempered.
Very loving.
Understanding.
Amazingly forgiving.
The Greatest of eveything.

The epitome of UBER PERFECTION.

You people must know about Jehovah while He could still be found.
Our life, our future all depends on this.
Know Him.
Know His will.

It is not corney to read the Bible.
It is not corney to understand what the TRUTH is.

We all know there are hundreds and hundreds of religions in existence.
But we have the Bible to teach us what God's will is.
And there are Bible-aid publication which could help us understand what the Bible really teach. (so as to prevent having own interpretations on its teachings)
That is our MANUAL in this life.
So it is important to study and read it.

Jehovah God do pleads us to "get out" from this system of things before He finally cast his anger and completely annihilate the disobedient humans. (Revelations 18:4)
We cannot continuously be stubborn and ignore Him.
It will cost us our lives and our future.

So Jehovah's Witnesses continue to seek and find those who are willing to know the truth about God and His purposes.
We will not be forever doing this.
God has an appointed time.
But before it's too late, like Jesus Christ and Jehovah God, we "plead" for people to know about Jehovah God and leave this cunning world of Satan.

I've been a Jehovah's Witness for 11 years, as I have said.
And I will continue to be one as much as I can.
It is not easy to be a JW because of the unpopularity of our beliefs in contrast to the common beliefs of this world, but it is really worth it to be in the truth.
Trying to sway from the truth makes life really twisted and very complicated.

Anyways.. That's me thinking aloud. :D
I just thought of creating an entry about spirituality since it's my baptism anniversary today. :)

I have this resolution to regain my spiritual vigor.
I know Satan will always try to stop me from doing God's will.
He's happy whenever I fail . Uber happy and all smiling if Jehovah's hurting.
But I will try my very best to prove Satan wrong on his accusations.

I will make Jehovah God happy.
I know it is not easy, because I am a sinful human.
But I will try my very best.
Jehovah God deserves all the praise and happiness not Satan the Devil.

I really do hope and pray that I could do this.
I could re-arrange my life and make Jehovah happy.

Happy 11th Baptism Anniversary for me!!! ^_^

2008 & Grace

2008 is a milestone in my life.
i have learned a lot of things this year about myself.
gained "new" experiences: some are nice, most are "unwelcome" :s

a few realizations about myself:

1. Grace is a rational person
2. Most of the time she's fair and just on her dealings with people
   
3. She always has her reasons in doing things
4. She might not always do things right, but she is responsible enough to face the consequences of her actions (not blaming anyone for it)
   
5. She could amazingly sacrifice her own happiness for the happiness of other people

Those are just a few but my favorites are the 1st, 4th and 5th.
Those are, I think, the most important aspects of my personality.
Important because they are not at all easy to do.

It's hard to wish for somebody's happiness if you are hurting because of that person.
And yet, I was able to do that. I am cringing in pain, tears rolling down my cheeks and yet I can sincerely wish and pray that they could be happy. To be honest, I kind of admire that part of my personality. It's not easy, y'know to wish other people to be happy while you are dying in pain because of them.. Still, I did it. :') -- for the second time around..

Also, giving up on your happiness to avoid hurting other people is one great challenge. But I did it. Again, for the second time in this lifetime, I chose to be hurt and see others happy than me being happy and see others in pain.. Well, what could you say about that? :)

Another thing, I can effectively rationalize on things.
Though my heart seems to be stronger sometimes, still my mind can overpower her if I wanted to.
My brain could control and suppress my heart's wild part and avoid getting further damages. I actually have discovered the power of my brain to control myself: every action, thought and emotion. It is just a matter of discipline and self-control.

Also, I always hold myself responsible for what's happening in my life.
I don't blame anyone if I hurt in the process.
Because I know I always have an option. I know I always have a choice.
If I'm hurting, that's because I made wrong decisions, right? :)
So it's for me to face the consequences and bear the pain until I heal..

So yun. Those were just my realizations about myself.
If I can overcome all these, I know I could be a much, much stronger person. :)
Much stronger than before.

I hope I could heal soon..
I really hope and PRAY I could recuperate from this soon..

remember me?

I finished reading earlier today my newest book by Kinsella, "Remember Me?"

I hardly stopped reading the book once i began scrolling on it last night.
The book was about Lexi Smart, who had an accident which caused her to have a retrograde amnesia.

What amazes me about her story is the fact that she can't feel anything towards anyone, even to her own husband since she lost her memories for the last 3 years.

That made me think that emotions are really triggered by what you are thinking, how you perceived things or what you have stored in mind.

While I was reading it last night, how i wished I could select the memories I could retain in my brain.
I wish I could easily delete those "entries/files/data" which are so much connected to pain and hurtings.

Honestly NOW, I quite envy Lexi to have that kind of amnesia.
How I so much wish I was her right at this moment.
I am hurting. So much hurting..
Only God knows and understand how difficult this is for me.
I cannot make anyone understand me.
No words existing in Lexicon could describe the heaviness I feel at the moment.

There were things I can't easily remove from my system.
Things which I must get rid of as soon as possible or I am dead.

My ghas.. This is the first time I felt so much pain.
I was able to cope with two (2) "big and confusing events" in my life.
But this one is different.
It involves everything about my life. Every detail of it.
And now my shield and my guard from self-destruction is weakening.
I feel like all my organs are being twisted & shuffled inside.

*sigh*

If I could just turn back the time..
If I could just easily forget what happened..
If I could just easily remove people from my memory and not remember and feel anything.

I've done terrible things in my life.
Terrible. Terrible things.

I was thinking of what really are hurting me..

(1) Me being so stupid, letting myself be deceived even I know and I feel deep inside that something's really not right.
(2) Deceptions and lies from someone you have learned to trust.
(3) Feeling used.
(4) Giving God's enemy all the smiles he wants, while hurting God all through out.
(5) Trusting and handing in my special gift to the wrong person which unfortunately, I cannot have back.
(6) Hurting the people I love and valued most.
(7) Almost throwing ALL away for some insignifant, selfish bout.

There.. Could you imagine how I became so wicked?
A "bitch" as Lexi's staff described her.

Prior to Lexi's accident. She used to be so unprofiled and yet humble, kind, caring and a sweet person to everyone. The 3-year hole in her life seemed to mold her into a different kind of person: stern, strict, a "bitch-from-hell-boss" (as her staff calls hers). So when she recovered from the accident, with that 3-years empty cave in her memory, she cannot fully comprehend why everyone seems to be so cold and hate her. She even didn't know that she's already holding a diretor position in the company from just being an associate. When she looked at the mirror, her knees wobbled at the sight. For she has grown so beatiful, without any trace of her physical deformities.

Well, I could somewhat (SOMEWHAT) relate to what had happened to her. When I gaze myself at the mirror, I sometimes ask my reflection:

"Who are you?"
"Where is Grace?"
"What have you done to yourself?"
"What happened to me?"

But similar to Lexi, I know deep inside, that the real & old person is locked up.
I just need to rack my brain and rationalize on things.
Gradually, fix things up around me.
Get rid of what to get rid of.
"Destroy" every memory which ravages me inside. (Though I know it's really impossible destroying them. I guess, acceptance, being responsible with myself, being rational on things will greatly help, plus living a good life as much as my weak self can..)

Lexi did try to understand what happened to her old self.
How did she became like "that."
There were incidents in her past life which forced her to become the person she was: hard, inconsiderate, stern, unrelenting and stubborn.
There were also people in her life which hurt her so much that she finally decided to change her old self and get to a new one. She became so ambitious that she forgets her friends and her loved ones.. Then from then on, the old Lexi started to fade..

Well, I also medidated on that and realized what moved me to change.
I got myself so busy, putting aside the more important things in life like my spirituality.
Also, there were a few people who seems to abuse my kind and mild-mannered self that they just left me after enjoying a part of their life with me. Those people didn't even know they left a hole in me. Big holes in me.. All of that I knew God saw.

My experiences in life. People who became part of it have a lots of say to what I have become. Still, it is my choice to what kind of person I would "wear."
I could not change back, but I definitely can modify myself for the better.

*sigh*

I am so sorry for everything.
I am hurting but I don't blame anyone for this, only myself.
I put myself into this kind of situation and I earned all these pain.
I just hope I could get thru all of this.
I hope I could make up with everyone I hurt, most especially to God.
I hurt Him the most. Over and over again. I am really so sorry..
If it's my consequence to live with this kind of loneliness a lifetime, then be it.
All I am concerned of this time is to regain His favor and to fully feel that I am forgiven.
I also wanted to forgive myself and finally leave the wrong course I took and put them all behind.

I wanted to heal. ASAP.
As in ASAP.

I need to work on with my mind and control my thoughts.
Be rational with what happened and try to appease the pain I feel.

How I wish I could just delete all the "unnecessary" memories so I won't feel anything like Lexi..

Good thing, I could still somewhat feel the "real' me.
All I need to do is remember her.

And so I ask myself: "Remember me?"

i lost again and again and again..

*sigh*

come on!!!!
fight!!!!
my ghas, grace.
stand-up and fight!
do it right now!
as in NOW!!!

:s

dry cough

oh no!
i have dry cough!
huhuhu..
i'm not feeling well.. :s
sakit ng lalamunan ko ever ever.. =((

alone

shucks.
bakasyon mode na mga tao.
la ng tao dito sa opis oh.
may pasok kami today pero di na sila work mode.
i think nasa 16th floor sila. mga nagpa practice ng mga presentations nila.
yung iba naman, mga naka-leave.
yung iba, asa training.
clients are, i think, on a slow-mode na din.
konti na lang nagrereply sa mga e-mails.
most of them are not in the office to answer calls.
some are totally absent na talaga na di ko na alam kung asan na mga yon.

haaaay..
sooo quiet.

this will not do me any good.
here, being so quiet and i'm alone.
grabeeee..
ang saya, saya!

:-s

blasphemous sites about JWs

hi,

i have been browsing the internet and suddenly remembered my experience years ago while i was searching Google about Jehovah's Witnesses.

back then, i was just being curious on what the world says about Jehovah Witnesses, and to my astonishment there are so many articles, blogs, forums, sites discussing twisted thoughts about JWs. some of the authors are ex-JWs, some are just people who chose to believe what most of their fellow men believe. some are just confused individuals who really don't know what they are saying.

pero, really! the articles are so powerful, some of them even provide "proofs" that JWs are deceitful people, relationship breakers, causing families to disintegrate, etc. etc.

and to describe how convincing their crafty acts are, naapektuhan ako just by reading ONE article discussing how JWs work illegally on some of the publications (i think it's an AWAKE issue). my ghas! i can't explain my disappointment after reading it. it effectively planted doubts on my mind on how true this religion is.

matagal na kong Saksi non ha. pano na yung naghahanap lang ng impormasyon tungkol sa mga Saksi? could you imagine the devastating effect of those malicious articles to them? how it could block people to know the truth about Jehovah God, our Grand Creator, the Most Sovereign God? (Psalms 83:18) tsk tsk tsk..

i can't remember exactly what i did to regain myself. but i think, i continue reading the Bible, did more research and fully trust Jehovah Himself and the organization. that is just to prove to myself that this is the right religion, that they teach what God wanted us to know. you know naman, di naman ito yung kulto na bine-brainwash mga tao para maging miyembro. or sasabihin mo lang na tanggap mo na si Jesus, ok sa orayt na. NO. it doesn't work that way.

sa mga Saksi, you will study the Bible. then it's up to you if you'll accept what the Bible says. kapag ganon, mas matibay ang pundasyon ng pananampalataya if you yourself is convince that what you have learned is the truth. hindi dahil sabi lang ng mga magulang mo, or dahil ito na yung tradisyon, or dahil sa ito yung popular. hindi yun ganon. it must go deeper than that. :)

so yun, i continue proving to myself na ito yung totoong religion. patuloy akong nag-aral ng Bibliya, kinilala si Jehovah, dumalo sa mga pulong, then i continue associating myself with the spiritual brothers and sisters, then after a while, all my doubts have perished.

so i'd like to warn everybody, AS IN WARN EVERYBODY, that if you want to know more about Jehovah's Witnesses, avoid searching the internet for details. it's a poor source of information. alam ko namang alam niyo yon, kalimitan ng mga nasa internet, haka-haka lang. gawang isip ng mga tao. imbento (to put it short). totoo, halos lahat ng impormasyon nasa internet na, pero hindi lahat ng mababasa niyo don ay tunay.

so if you're interested to know more about the Bible and see how Jehovah's Witnesses work unitedly in bringing the good news to the world, please feel free to contact any of the Jehovah's Witnesses. they are trained how to be good teachers of the Bible. that's why we have this weekly meetings (or pulong) where we receive our spiritual food and trainings.

Here is an image of the book we use to help people learn what the Bible really teach.


I think after the District Convention this year, we'll have another book to be used for bible study. anybody interested? :)

e-mail niyo lang ako: grace.lapis@gmail.com
or text niyo ko: 0917-800-0639.

ok? i hope and i pray somebody will come to read this entry and will at least inquire about the free study program. :)

ikaw ba yun ha? ha? ha? hehehe.. :D

chest

lagi ko hawak dibdib ko.
yung parang magbabayang-magiliw?
ganon.
sakit eh.. kaya lagi ko hinahagod..

*sigh*

bad dreams

because my brain is very stressed in trying to process and numb all these heavy & intense emotions, i have been having nightmares for 3 straight nights already .

what i thought of the last before closing my eyes were what i saw in my dreams. and i hate them all! akala ko kapag nakatulog ako, mapapahinga ang utak ko sa pagkalma sa kin. sa pag-aayos ng mga kumplikadong emosyon na nagpapahirap sa kin. pero hinde, binabagabag pa din ako ng pasakit sa pagtulog ko. huhuhu.. kaya kapag nagigising ako, am bigat ng dibdib ko. kakainis! sobrang bigat. parang may nakapatong na sampung hollowblocks. my ghas! :s

maybe what i should do starting tonight is to read the Bible before i sleep, pray hard and relax my body so i could have a restful and peaceful night.

all these things will pass, i know.
sa una lang yan mahirap..

i could move on.
i could move on.
i know, i could.

i am coping

hmmm.. i am ok. (i think.)
though i haven't slept well these last few nights after ending "things."
i am still hurting but as i have said, i am trying my best to be rational trying to choose what is right.
things are not easy to bear.
changes are so difficult to welcome.
but i need to do all these before it's too late.
before i could inflict more damages to myself
and before things could get more twisted and complicated.
i need to get out asap before i could "kill" myself in the process.

IT.IS.NOT.EASY.

the pain is killing me.
but i do know that if i continue with this, the pain will be much much more unbearable.
and my life will turn upside, down. (10 cycles of 360 degrees turn!)

i don't want that.
i want to live peacefully.
i want to have a peace of mind.
i want to be genuinely happy. :)

with all my might, i will do everything to re-gain what i have lost.

time for a relaxation

i got another surprised gift from a friend na naman. hihi.. ;))
he gave me a gift voucher for a FULL RELAXATION moment in Get Away Spa in Quezon City. hehehe.. so excited. ^_^

well, i really need one right now. AS IN! :s
pero di ko pa alam kelan e..

boo-boo's very cordial in replying to my inquiries.
i don't know if he's the owner or something pero sabi niya: "i'm really excited to have you soon here."

well, nadala ako doon. hahaha!
babaw noh?
naniwala akong excited siya talaga sa pagpunta ko don.
wahahaha! adik.

cguro by next week ako magpa sched.
ewan. basta. pag super feel ko na. :D



- - - - -
*sigh*

buntong hininga lang ng buntong hininga, Grace..
you'll all pass these trials.. things will get better for you..
in the meantime, try to be happy as much as you can..

oohh so smooth!

Hehehehe..
I had my legs done yesterday for the first time.
Plus my underarm and a bikini wax. (well it was supposed to be a bikini wax lang pero parang sumobra ata. hahaha!)

I didn't think that my legs are white pala and makinis!
Hihi.. Panay nga tingin ko sa salamin eh and panay ang hawak ko kasi makinis sia.
Sarap hawakan. Hehehe..
Aliw. Dapat, matagal ko na tong ginawa eh.
Ayaw ko lang kasi pagalaw talaga baka lalong pumanget. :D
Eh di pala. Ok lang pala. ;))

Pero shucks ha.
Ang sakit niya!!!!
Huhuhuhu..
AS IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN!
Sobrang sakit ever.
Di ko alam kung gusto kong tumawa o umiyak kahapon pero my ghas!
The word HURT can't even describe the pain i felt yesterday.
Hooh!

But it's all worth it.
Ang kinis ng legs ko oh.
Hehehe..

Po-post sana kong picture eh.
Kaso baka sabihin naglalantad na ko ng laman. Hahaha! :p
Lay Bare helped me achieve a smoother legs and a kalbong kili-kili and a clean *shuckamabelle*
LOL!

Adik.

Babalikan ko si Maricelle. :)
She did me.

(Happy! ^_^)

hello everyone

IT'S FINALLY OVER.

Things are getting complicated around me so I'm currently ironing out the creases.
I have not been myself these last few months.
But I am really hoping I could get around soon.
I miss being Grace again. :)

Please do include me in your prayers also.
I have not been well specially this week.
I'm just trying to be strong and continue being rational on things.
Containing negative emotions and digesting them all in until all the bitterness subsides.

I have put myself into this situation and I will certainly pull myself out. (easier said than done huh?)
I will try my best to do everything I could to face all these consequences.
I somewhat anticipated about the hurtings but we all know that no matter how we prepare ourselves, pain will always catch us off guard.

Well, I must be responsible enough to face all these.
Get on with the changes. Cry as much as I want, just to help my body ease the pain.

Oh my.. What have I done to myself? *sigh*

I really do hope things will get better.
If I am hurting now (excruciatingly hurting), I deserve it all..

Sorry for those I have hurt. I do not intend to get yourselves be affected with this.
It was so dumb of me to think that I could only hurt myself in the process.
But it seems that those people I loved the most are most hurt with this.
I am really sorry..
I cannot undo the damage, but i can repair it, I guess.

I need Jehovah God, to help me to get thru this.
I somewhat left Him while I centered myself on some selfish bout.
But still I know deep inside that I cannot go on with this life if He'll be totally out of it.
I can't live without Jehovah God on my side.
I am really sorry for the hurts and pain.
I know I cannot offer anything to match His undeserved kindness and deep love for me.
But I know He still values every little good thing I do to continue fighting.

*sigh*

I should have not let my guards down.
I should have been wiser and stronger.
Now, it's all getting on to me.

Just to give you an idea, it seems that my body cannot contain the pain I am currently experiencing.
I feel so stupid about myself.

But I am not brooding on these negative thoughts.
I was just trying to let them all out.
I am still hopeful that things will get better for me.
Consequences of wrong decisions will soon find their way to me.
And I will face them all.

I do not know how long will all these last.
I hope I could bear the torturing pain.

Again, I am sorry for all the troubles.
At least, I could still smile. :)

It won't fade. (I hope)

;o)

tamaritis

haaaaaaaay..
i'm so tamad ever.. :s
tinatamad akong magkikilos.
'man. 'man. 'man.

masayahin si ako.

ahhhh..
kaya pala di ako siadong madaling mapalungkot kasi i've been to several difficult situations which i never saw myself surrendered.
di basta basta mga pinagdaanan ko.
with friends or not, i was able to overcome them all.
saka likas akong masayahin.
mababaw lang akong tao eh.
kaya dali lang ako mapatawa.

yun pala yooooon...

kasi ang wi-weird ng mga pinagdaanan ko eh.
according to a friend mga "adventures" ko daw. hehehe..
di daw ako nauubusan ng mga wild experiences in life.

well, looking back, i faced several hardships na di ganong normal.
laging twisted and complicated.
pero to my amazement din, nalusutan ko lahat, tas di ako siado nagspend ng time for lungkot.
i'll be lonely for some time pero bumabalik kagad sigla ko. hehe..
cguro nga masayahin lang talaga ko.
di ako madamot ngumiti kat sobrang lungkot ko na.
nakakatulong din cguro yon, yung pag-ngiti sa iba.
seeing people smiling back at you brings relief to your heavily burdened soul.

tas lagi din ako tumatawa.
kaya kong patawanin sarili ko kat sa maliliit na bagay lang.
well, i just love to laugh and smile. as in! ^_^

hmmm.. so dahil nga matitindi ang hinanakit na dinanas (naks. hinanakit talaga. bigat. :p ), di nko siadong nalulungkot sa mga trivial na bagay lang.
though, di ko naman sinasabi na di nko malulungkot ever.
cguro, di lang talaga namamayani ang lungkot sa kin.
pero i know that for every stage i passed, lalong humi-hirap ang level na kelangan kong harapin. *sigh*

kakatakut pa din. pero sana kaya. hehe
kaya ko ba? kaya ko! (i really do hope) :D

oh well, just keep on smiling Grace! ~_^

i believe, yours is as contagious as the sun's brightness which spreads across the horizon, giving light, giving hope.
make others happy by sharing them your happiness, no matter how little or small it is.

HAPPINESS is a very common word but is very hard to attain for most of us now.
try to live life happily as much as you can.
it's all worth it to be happy. as in genuinely happy! :)

rationalization

what you feel now greatly depends on how you process your thoughts and how you rationalize the situation. as long as you have full control of your brain and only feed it with the right information, justifying things fairly and rationally, emotions will follow on smoothly.

the brain is all powerful. it controls our physical body and and also of our complicated human emotions. what you put in your mind, greatly affects on what you will feel afterwards.

i already tried numbing myself from pain by being rational and reasonable, taking all the responsibility of what's happening. it works! though the pain is not 100% cured, but it greatly subsided to a very tolerable level. :)

if you take responsibility on your life, you will find it easier to change things. but if you can't help but blame others for what's happening, then you will surely feel helpless on things.

do not try to change other people to accomodate your request, to achieve your goals. make the necessary changes to yourself ( the one you have full control) to change what's gonna happen next.

it's on how you view things that affects your emotions. if you correct a mistake by doing another mistake, then you will most likely end up lonely and miserable.

but if you start making even small changes and gradually fixing the errors, you will eventually feel relieved.

remember, for every mistake done, there is a corresponding consequence. if you think other people have wronged you, deceived you, let them be. God sees all things. continue doing what is right, trying as much as possible to avoid hurting others in the process of acquiring your happiness.

the endurance will work on you and will eventually turn you into a much stronger person: milder, calm, kind, and has loads of self-control. :)

have a nice day!

GOOD MORNIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING! ^_^

shades down

La lang. I find this shot so ME. ^_^
If there's one thing that is mine (and mine alone), it's that sincere & warm SMILE I always wear in my face. :)

my band accessories

Those are may "bands" as I call them, in general. I have 5 watches and 6 bangles, 2 of which are not there.

Ganda nung 2 metallic watches noh? Mura lang yan. Hehe.. Got them sa tabi-tabi lang. Both silver, but they differ on their dial colors. One is grayish white, the other is pure black. A foreign client likes the latter, so I gave him one before he leaves for the US. HE was a male, actually and is fond of watches. I actually has a separate entry about him when we were in Greenhills. Go read it if you like. ;o) I prefer the white one over the black, though I use the black watch more often when I'm in the office. The white one, is too pretty to wear. Although, looking at it, makes me always wanted to snap it on my arms and see it shimmer and shine.. :)

Anyways.. So to continue.. the other 2 wacthes in the collage: (1) blue & (2) black are for "ragged" activities (outdoor i mean). I prefer the blue over the black. I just chose to acquire the black watch because of its alluring design despite its simplicity (for me, the simpler, the better). The blue is a gift from a dear friend. When she was still here, I remember us doing the Voltes 5 hand action because we exactly has the same watch. Minsan, out of teasing, i will burst out and say: "Let's volt in!!!" Hehehehe.. Kakatawa.. Kasi pareho kami relo. :D Voltes 5 mania. :D

Then the black and white shimmering bangles (left most bottom of the collage) are for my girlie outfits. I prefer colors which are more neutral so I will not ba having a hard time matching them with my clothes. So most of my accessories are in white or black. Kaso laging sumasabit sa damit ko yang dalawang yan pag suot ko. Kasi may beads sila. Nasugatan na nga ako nung black eh. Sharp yung edges niya kasi.. Pero ganda naman sila sa kamay kasi kumikinang, simple ang design but not common. Again, they are beautiful despite their simplicity. :)

Now, this is my favorite.. My red complicated glimmering bronze bangle. Sa sobrang paborito ko siya, di ko pa sia nagagamit kat isang beses. Hahaha! When you see it, you'll gonna be amazed with its beauty. Kaya nga kat mahal sia, when I first saw it, i bought it. I first try it on my arms, then I eventually fell in love with it. Ganda nia! Pramis.. I could call her "Aphrodite" because of her monstrous beauty. :)

The last, but not the least, is my antique bronze bangle.. Tagal na niyan sa kin. Years ago na. Pero it seems not to wear out thru time.. Astig yan sa arms tingnan. It has long served me as my accessory to beauty. May partner yan na earrings. Bihira ko na magamit. Marami na din siang napahanga with its hikaw partner.

There.. I just feel like creating an entry for my "bands." They're been here with me palagi. Siguro hilig ako talaga sa arm accessory, except for bracelets. I don't like them ever. Panget siya tingnan sa kamay ko. Mas maganda ang bangles for me and simple watches. ^_^

Do you like them also?

^_^

office space

Here's a shot of my so gulo na cubicle sa office. Ang ayos ano? Hehehe.. Yung asa right-most top corner contains a chaotic file of documents, binders, leave forms, brochures, etc. Basta kahit anong papel na walang lalagyanan jan ko nilalagay. May continuation yan sa "ground floor." Kita mo yung mga papel sa ilalim ng table? :D Yoooon.. Dun ang continuation niyon. Di na ma-contain mga docs ko sa taas eh kaya ganyan. Di ko pa nga, naso-sort mga kapa-papelan jan. Tsk. Kakatamad kasi. Ang daaaaaaaaaaami.. Tas sa baba non, yung bag ko kapatong. Madalas asa baba ang bag ko, wang ko nga ba bat asa ibabaw ng table yan nung nagkuha ako ng picture. Baka kakarating ko pa lang opis. Kaya ganon. Kasi ngayon. Kung titingnan mo table ko, katabi ko tissue. :D

Tas katabi ng bag ko, yung New Moon na book, that's Stephenie Meyers' second book. Tapos ko na basa yan. Asa 4th book na ko. Lapit na din tapos. Hihi.. Tapos balik ako kay Kinsella after ni Meyer. Then most probably, I will re-visit Paolini's series.

Tapooos.. andon din yung lalagyanan ng cellphone ko, yung brown.. Kita pa ba sa picture?
Basta yung brown na katabi ng Smuckers. Ay eto. May closer shot ako ng dalawang yan. Wit.
Yaaaan.. Kita na? Hihi.. ;))

Tapooos, makikita din sa picture yung expired ko na atang body splash from Victoria's Secret. (haha!) Tagal na niyan eh.. Ngayon ko lang ulit nilabas kasi wala na kong perfume. Huhuhu.. Di ako bibili ng perfume kasi bibidyan ako ni Tatay ko! ^_^ Excited na nga si ako eh. Hehehe.. :D

Tas kita din sa picture yung pagkalaki laki kong monitor. 21 inches wide ata to eh. Basta rectangle ang shape. Ang mga pictures medyo stretched na. Lahat ng muka sa monitor ko ala Judy Ann ang itsura. Kaya kung maganda kang tingnan sa monitor ko, ibig sabihin uber ganda ang shot mo. :)

*shuucks* natae ako bigla. My ghas. Nae-ebs na ko. :s Gusto ko na uwe. Eh maya pang ala siete ang labas ko. Late ever eh. Tsk tsk.. Grasya-bel talaga. Tsk tsk..

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(parang bitin ano? La lang)

Jethro

Name: Arl Jethro T. Maranan
Age: 5 1/2
Birthday: January 28, 2003

Eldest and sole child of my bestfriend, Thengla.
A very kulit but bait child.
Endearing, adorable and a very sweet young lad.
He loves to make faces like his mom and has a great sense of humor.
But i find him very temperamental. :p
He loves to sing when he's alone. Actually, imbentong lyrics sinasabay sa mga popular na kanta.
Funny when you hear him sing his "compositions." :D
And I think he likes me so much! Haha!
You could always hear him say:

"Ang ganda, ganda mo Tita Grace."
"Hug tayo, Tita."
"Mommy, tabi kami ni Tita Grace matulog. Dun ka na kay Daddy, tumabi."
"Mas maganda si Tita Grace kay Ate Kim." (Kim is his crush, by the way)
"Tita Grace, ang ganda mo pag naka-ganyan ka.." (Yung ganyan na yon, kahit anong suot at puesto ko. Or kahit na anong ayos ng buhok ko maganda sa kaniya. Kahit parang sabukot, ganda pa din.)

O ha? My appeal works even for toddlers. Haha! Ayos.
Jethro even gave me a love letter last night. :D
With all his drawings and everything.
He's happy when he sees me happy.
He wants to give or do anything that will make me smile or approve of him.
While we were having dinner last night, his mom was feeding him with his meal.
He asked me: "Tita Grace, ayaw mo ba sa mga sinusubuan pa pag kumakain?"
I answered: "Oo, ayoko ng mga nagpapasubo pa."
He got his spoon from his mom and said: "Ako na mommy ang magsusubo sa kin. Kaya ko na. Ayaw ni Tita Grace ng sinusubuan pa eh.."

For him, his mom is the most beautiful woman in the world, no matter how laki her tiyan is. (lol)
But when I'm around, her mom will only rank second to me. =))
Pag ganon, magda-drama si Ate Theng. Sabihin niya, di na niya sia love. Or di na sia makakatabi sa kaniya pag matutulog.
Sasagot ni Jethro, ganto: "Ok lang."
Haha! Didn't work. :D

Nways.. So yun. I spent my weekend with Jethro and Te Theng.
You'll always hear him ask his mom: "Si Tita Grace, asan?"
Adik na bata.
Ke-bata bata naaadik na. :p

Minsan gagawan ko ng blog entry yang "appeal" na yan.
Minsan, I myself wonder din eh.
I seem to attract anybody. I draw people to me.
Mapa-sanggol. Mapa-bata. Mapa-teen-ager. Mapa-tanderz.
Tsk. Tsk.
Cguro dahil palatawa ako? Palangiti? Masayahin? Di ko alam.
Isip ko muna.
I-mumuni muni ko yan pag may panahon. :D
Take note: PAG MAY PANAHON. (asaness...)
Tas tsaka ko ba-blog.

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P.S.: Dami ko na utang na entries pala. One is about Bella & me. Tas eto na ngang appeal power. Di bale. Dalwa lang pala. Tsiken lang yan. Sa opis ko na gawin. Hahaha! Joke. :p

TOOTSIE ROLL: kuko nails

Kita mo? Bagong nail polish ang kuko ko today. Actually, kakapa-pedicure ko lang last week. Eh yung nail polish na ginamit, suwanget. Ilang araw pa lang tanggal na. Kaya ayan, pag-uwi ng LB, pa-pedicure ulit. Dapat kasi every other week ang pedicure. Eh wala. Kesa naman parang dalmatian kuko ko. Yung ibang kuko may nail polish, tas yung iba hubad. Leeeer.. Am panget kaya.. :s

Mas maganda tingnan yung kulay ng nail polish na yan sa bote. Mejo glossy, pero pagdating sa paa ko parang tootsie roll ang kulay oh? Ba yan.. Pero ayos lang. 2 weeks lang man yan sa paa ko eh. Hehehe.. Tas palit na. ^_^

Kakatuwa oh, naka SOFT FOCUS pa yung paa ko sa PICASA. Hahahaha! Kapal ng muka. May effects pang nalalaman for a feet shot. =)) Kala mo naman kaganda ng paa.. Eh oh, parang paa ng magsasaka! Hahaha!

Eh bat ba. Eh sa gusto kong gawan ng blog ang paa ko eh. :p

Ok lang naman di ba? Tootsie Roll Kuko Nails.. Niiiiiice..

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Mind (he) vs. Heart (she)

Hmm.. Kanina while I was riding the FX, may naisip ako bigla. [La na kasi ko binabasa na book eh kaya nagkakaron tuloy ako time mag-isip. Tsk.] Anyways.. So yun nga, may naisip ako bigla. La lang. Hilig kasi ako magtanong. Kaya pati sarili ko di nakaligtas sa mga sarili kong tanong. Haha! Adik..

Eh di yun nga. Bigla ako may naisip. Mejo seryoso to ha? Hawak na sa upuan. Hehe..

I was just thinking, it's really easy to wish for someone to be happy when you're also happy yourself. No sweat! You could simply say with a smile that you wish that person to be joyful.

But what if, that person's happiness would mean that you will be sourful and be left alone in the end? What if, he's mainly the chief source of your happiness at the moment and as circumstances demand, he needs to go? Could you still genuinely say to him that you wish him happiness eventhough speaking each letter of the word is like shooting arrows pegging deep thru your heart? Could you still utter the words? Sincerely?

Sabi sa inyo, malalim to eh. HEBIGAT. lol!
Biruin mo yon? Naisip ko yan sa FX?? Hahaha!
Adik.

So to continue..

Well, i did try to answer my own question to my bored self kanina.
My MIND tells me that it will take a lot of courage, discipline, maturity and self-sacrifice to do that. It is not impossible, but it will definitely be difficult.

My HEART tells me, that it is so near to impossible to give up someone you have learned to adore and trust for quite a while.

As always, it's a battle between your insightful brain and your freakingly wild and adventurous heart.

Most of the time, I am a mind-over-heart person. My brain rules my emotions. But I do have my lapses whenever my heart plays tricks on me. You might ask: "How does your heart deceives/tricks you?"

To answer that, I'll give one example. My brain knows most of what I needed to do in different situations or conflicts. My brain has been fed with so much knowledge from the Bible since I was 5. My brain is mature, insightful and very understanding on most part of my life. It always has a control and very restrictive on how my heart handles things. But then again, when my heart feels that my brain is winning. She'll start to play her game. How does she play? It's like this..

My heart is very well aware that my brain is most of the time correct (hmmm.. i leave at least 20% error for that). Sometimes, my heart obeys what my brain tells her to do. But MOST OF THE TIME, she rebels to what it says. So what she usually does is this -- she taps every soft side of my brain and from there she manipulates its decision.

She touches the soft side such as compassion, sympathy and the brain, being overwhelmed by such kind but strong emotions are eventually being clouded on its reasonings. Then if my brain's not strong enough to resist the "seduction" played by my heart, then that's when he will give in to what she wanted. He will let her have what she wants. But thru out all those time of being lax to her, he never stopped telling her to stop what she is doing. If my brain won't coerce my heart to stop, she will continue doing things which is very dangerous and even lethal to me, their rightful owner.

My brain must not get used to what my heart is doing. Because once he get used to it, he will accept her standards and her immature reasons on doing things.

The brain is always mindful on others. The heart is most of the time selfish and inconsiderate. Always wanting HER happiness, stealing other's joy and grace...

O ha? Sa biyahe lang yan kanina.
Hahahaha!

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Twilight's Premiere Night! ^_^

Hello!!!! ^_^

Finally! We're done with the movie!!!
But we're not over Edward yet. Not now.
Not in the near future! Haha!

Movie's fine, actually. [if you haven't read the book yet. hihi.. ;)) ]

To rate it from 1-10, 10 being the highest? I'll give it a 6. :)

Hmmm.. Kristen Stewart is perfect for BELLA's role, physically speaking, and she did well for the most part, really acting as Bella Swan as vividly described in the book. That's how I imagined her while I was reading Twilight. Galing!

Pero my ghas! She doesn't know how to shed tears when she needs to cry.. :s All she did was to make piga of luha sa kaniyang mga mata by blinking fast.. Yung parang napuwing? Ganon. Am baduy noh? Maaaaan.. Ang kornik tuloy nung mga scenes na dapat nakakaiyak tas tong si Kristen, di man mapaiyak.. Tsk, tsk.. Ganda pa naman nia. :D TORN OP. Haha! Joke. :p

Then there's Edward Pattinson as EDWARD CULLEN. Yiheeeee! He certainly has guapo moments in the movie but has kornik/panget angles as well. Pag 3/4 lang ang pag side view niya, am flat ng muka!!!! Parang lalagyanan ng plantsa. Ba yun.

Pero men, ang guapo when he smiles! Nuknukan! *wink, wink* Shuckerbelle talaga.. KILLER SMILE! or "crooked smile" as repeatedly described by Meyer in the Saga series. Hihi.. ;)) Haaaay.. a smile you would die for to see in real life. *sigh*

"Guapo mo Edward!!! Pag kangiti! PRAMIS. Alabyu! (lol)"

Though, i think, somebody could have done the role better. Robert just had that crooked smile that Edward Cullen has. He got it so perfect. :) As in sooo perfect. :)

Anyways.. back to the movie.. So yun. Edward's fine, Bella's fine.. CARLISLE! is sooooo guapo also! And the actor did justice to the role! ^_^ Kras ko din siya. :D According to Jacob in Eclipse, Si "Dr. Fangs." BWAHAHAHA! I enjoy Jacob's sarcasm. He could always make me laugh with his hirits and lait. Hehehehe.. Pero hanggang dun lang. Nothing more, nothing less. Edward pa din! Hehe.. :p

ESME's so beautiful as described in the book and very motherly.

EMETTE is fine also. Perfect as per book's description.

JASPER and ALICE as well, did well on their roles. The actress who plays Alice was really graceful on her acts specially during the baseball game. Alice na alice talaga.

But ROSALIE? I got a bit disappointed on the director or producer's choice for that one character. In the book, she was being described as having matchless beauty. Sexy, alluring, truly enticing. Pero yung asa movie. Nuknukan ng lapad ng balakang. Tabachoy. Nu kaya yon. At di siya kagandahan! I even don't find her sexy.. Bat naman kaya yon ang gumanap??! Ok pa si Eva Mendez cguro. Yan. Mga ganyang level ng beauty ang na-imagine ko kay Rosalie. O kaya si Grace Lapis. Mga ganyang tipo. HAHAHAHAHAH! :p

Anyways.. So yun.. The movies fine, as I said. But the book is always better. :)
Looking forward for the rest of the series in the big screen! ^_^

P.S. Photo pala namin yun ni Raech while waiting in the line. Habaaaaaa ng pila. Buti na lang maaga kame. Mejo asa harap kami ng Pila. Yung dulo ng pila by the way, umabot sa National Bookstore sa ground floor ng Megamall ang cinema asa 3/F. Joooooke.. Hehe.. Basta the line was long. As in loooooooooooooong..

P.S. Part 2: Nasa Breaking Dawn na pala si ako. Lapit nko sa wedding and vampire moment ni Bella! ^_^ Soooo excited! ^_^

I am Bella Swan

Your Result

Bella Swan

You are Bella Swan, the apple of Edward's eye. You are very private, clumsy, sweet, and funny. You have a wonderful ability to accept people for what they are. You have an amazing capacity to love, even though you can be too hard on yourself.

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Personal Note: I am currently on the third book, Eclipse, but while I was reading half of the second, New Moon, I did realize that I have lots of similarities with Bella Swan, not on personality and character, but on our experiences and how we dealt with the difficult situations, particularly the scrutiating pain of being left alone at the end. They are amazingly almost perfectly similar. I will get into details about this in a separate blog.

In the meantime, that's my quiz result for Twilight. Though I'd really hope I'd be Edward. Hehehehe.. :D I like his character so much. Witty & smart, careful, romantic, caring, loving, protective, etc.

Conquering Greenhills.. :D

I was with Wilma and Francois this morning and we were out to Greenhills looking for a similar Rolex, Francois has in his arms. He said, he wanted to use it instead of the original so it won't easily wear out. [ By the way, his Rolex watch cost him more or less, $10,000 and if converted into peso, that's half a million! :o ] Anyways.. So we were there. Stalking on each of the interesting booth that we could find. We at least, checked on three (3) stores.

The tindera of the second store got a bit disappointed that we did not buy her watches after she made efforts of showing us all her rolex watches. Hahaha! She even gave us a low price. But she didn't have the exact model Francois had. What could we do about that? Buti na lang di ako hayblad kanina, I could have make hila her ngusong mahaba!!!! Psssss.. What an ale.. Pakain ko sa kaniya relo niya eh.. Ngusuan ba daw kami??!! Leeeeer..

Anyways.. So we continue with our search for the watch.. And we came to one booth (this time with a bading na tindero). Oh my ghas! He's really a seller! Did try so hard to sell his products in english. As in.. "Wow pareeeee.. Engliiiiishhhh.." Kat nahihirapan siya, he did try. Well kudos for him! ^_^

Then here's my part.. I asked him how much is he selling the watches Francois has picked. He said, "Ma'm, usually P2,500.00 po yan, ibigay ko po sa inyo ng P2,000.00.." Then I gave him a darting look which says "Oh no, you can't fool me around with this.." He was slightly abacked with my quick stare, then I finally said "Hindi namin siya kukuhanin for that price. That's too much! Somebody's offering us the same items for a much, much lower price." Then I stopped waiting for him to respond and make a new offer, but he just kept silent for a while then almost said in a whisper, "Yun po talaga ang presyo namin sa Rolex, Ma'm." Then I said with a heavy stare on his now inquiring eyes, "You give this to me at P900, we'll take two." He was abacked, went pale, few seconds passed, then he gave in, he gave the watches at P900 each. O ha? So Francois got his watches at P1,800.00. He saved P3,200.00! And that's 64% of the proposed price.

Hihi! Bargaining is fun isn't it? ^_^

Then Francois asked about what happened because he did not understand a single word from our conversation. :D I just asked him to give P1,8k and he said "Ok." So, while I was telling him the story while we walk again, he said: "Wow! You are amazing! How did you do that?! Though, I did notice he went pale during your conversation with him but I didn't know you bargained with so low a price that's why his blood drained from his body!" And I was laughing with his comments. Then he jokingly said: "You know, you're a dangerous person. I must not come anywhere near you. You're a people-reader!" Though, I really didn't exactly understand why he used the term "people-reader" in connection with my bargaining powers.. Well anyway, at the last, he said: "You should always come with me when I shop. You'll be very helpful. I'm sure about that."

Hehe.. So there. I got another fan for my bargaining skills! Hahaha! :p

And because he enjoyed shopping that morning, and he liked his Sizzling Kangkong very much at Gerry's Grill, he did pay for our lunch. We were supposed to be the ones to settle that, since he's the client, he's the guest, but he did insist. He didn't even wait for the staff to come over. He approached one of them and asked for the receipt just to dim our chances of paying the meal.

Soooo.. it ends up well. He's happy and we're vibrant knowing that we were able to help him that morning! ^_^

^_^

furious

I'M INFURIATING AGAIN! >.<

listahan ng papa-check-up

-boobs
-mata
-why am i suka suka palagi?
-why am i hilo-hilo palagi?

yaaaan.. katakut. :s

"my vision's failing"

grabeeee..
bat ba dami, dami, dami ko ng nararamdaman sa katawan ko.. huhu
di na siado sumasakit ang bato ko. minsan na lang pag di ako umiinom ng tubig. :D
tas yung boobs ko, sumasakit sia ever.
pero saka ko na papa-check. la pa ko pampa-check-up.
mahal magpa-duktor ngayon eh.
tas lately, lagi pa ko nasusuka. at nahihilo. my ghas!
tas yung paningin ko, lumalabo.
kakabasa ko ata to ng libro kahit madilim sa jeep.
dami ko ng gusto patingnan.
kaso yaku naman sa kung san-san lang na clinic.
kakatakut. baka kung mapano pa ko.
dami pa naman namamatay ngayon dahil sa kapabayaan ng mga duktor.
eh di dun na ko sa "mejo" sigurado magpatingin.
i'm choosing between makati med or medical city sa ortigas eh.
pero most likely sa medical city na lang.
naging kumportable na ko sa ospital na un eh.
though di ko alam kung magkano ang consultation don.
kasi the last time i went there, covered ng insurance un.
eh di pa naman ako regular sa trabaho ko ngayon. kaya la pa ko medical insurance.
kaya kung papa-check-up ako, sariling gastos.
eh tulad nga ng sabi ko, gusto ko sa mejo ok, ok na ospital na.
health ko na kaya yon.
di ako mamba bargain sa kalusugan ko noh.
eh pano kaya kung sabihin may cancer ako sa boobs??!! :o
shuuuuucks..
may lump kasi akong nakakakapa eh.. huhuhu
kaya natatakot din ako.. :(
hmmm.. basta pag nakuha ko yung backpay ko sa dati kong kumpanya.
papacheck-up ako.
eh mukang imposible naman makuha na yung backpay? huhuhu..
kaya nahahayblad ako sa mga yon eh. eveeeeeeeeeer!
tagal magbayad! my ghas!
kaya di umasenso ang buhay buhay. tsk.
nways..
so yun.
tumatanda na talaga ko..
dami ko na nararamdaman sa katawan.

:(

Twilight Premiere Ticket! ^_^

o haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa? :D



Soooooooooooooo excited! Promise!
That's my ticket for the premiere night of Twilight! Hihi..
Sensiya na. Tabinge. Kunyari style yun ng blog ko. Slanting images. Hehe.. :p
Nyways.. So yan yun.
Our gateway to see Edward Cullen live in action.
Yiheeee! ^_^
Can't wait, can't wait!

sari-sari -> blogra

o yan.
iba na title ng public blog ko.
nako-kornihan ako sa sari-sari store eh..
though "creative" talaga sia pakinggan, kornik lang ever. hahaha!
pina-nindigan talaga ang pagiging creative nung sari-sari eh noh?! hahaha! =))
adik.

so yun.
blogracious na sia ngayon.
o ha? unique di ba?
haha! i'm so like sounding so pathetic here. =))

combination of characters pa yan.
with letters. and symbols. and numbers. and everything. :D
at eto ang word history niyan:

blog + gracious (from grace siempered!)

ang uniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiique ever! =))
pinaghirapan ang blog title. =))
hooh~! babaliw na ata ako. =))
my ghas. =))

Bl0gR@ci0us?

=))

papaya + peanut butter

sakit ng tiyan ko!!!! =((
huhuhuhu..
pero di ako nae-ebs.
humihilab siya.
kumain kasi ako ng:

papaya + peanut butter + potato bread

ayun pagbalik ko dito sa area ko sakit na tiyan ko!
huhuhuhu.. =((
hapdi-hapdi ever. =((

di man ako nae-ebs.
sumakit lang tiyan ko. =((

=((

TWILIGHT

Haaaay..
I can't wait!
I really can't wait!!!!
Raech and I will be watching it's premiere here in the Philippines on the 25th at Megamall Cinema at 8:00 P.M.

Thanks to Raech's connections, we were able to get premiere tickets.
The premiere's by invitation only. Hehehehe..
But we got two (2)! Hihi.. ^_^

Soooo excited!
I can't wait to see Edward live in action! ^_^
I really do hope Robert Pattinson will do justice on the role. :-/


Here's Robert Pattinson portrayed as Edward Cullen in the movie "Twilight."
He surely looks a real vampire on that shot with his pale white skin, bloody red lips plus his golden honey eyes.. Parang ang lamig nga niya tingnan ano? Brrrr..

Im prepared to be swept away by his highly irresistable, truly hypnotical character. Hehehe..

I'm meeting you soon, Edward.
I'm meeting you soon.. :D

keyk

At 12:31 PM last Friday, Nov 14, while I was with Julius and Nery Encia (first time I met this guy, well to my surprise he's also an ex-GSI-er. Could you believe that? What a small world indeed! Really, as in! ^_^)

Well, anyways.. So yun. While I was with them. I received a text message from a friend:

leggerz (12:31): grace, nasan ka?
me (12:33): Tosh. Y?
leggerz (12:43): are you in a meeting?
me (12:45): Indi. Casual meet up lng wd old friends. Batit?
leggerz (12:45): Ok. Patapos na b kyo?
me (12:47): Kapapasok lng e. Grabe lmst 1hr nag-intay. Bkt nga? Nina pkng bkit ng bkit e. Ah, ah to. Wats up?
leggerz (12:48): great! Stay put.
me (12:50): Waaaah! Baket?
leggerz (12:50): san kyo nakaupo?
me (12:52) : Sa upuan? Hehe..

At exactly 12:56 , Leggerz called asking where we are seated and in a few minutes he was there bringing in a beautiful cake from Cheesecake, Etc.. And I was soooo surprised, as in! I didn't expect anybody will give me a gift since I don't celebrate birthdays at all.

Here's a photo of his gift.


How nice isn't it? Though, he knows our stand on birthdays, he never fails to forget the suppose-to-be special days of his friends. Sweet of him. :)

Though, I did hope he didn't bother of giving me anything.
But still, thanks. I did appreciate it.
It's beautiful. :)

Yummy, yummy cake! Fave part? The sole red shiny cherry and the Gardie-kun. (ganda ng lettering e) Hehe..

Many. many thaaaaanks! ^_^

waaaaaah!

i turned a year older today..
ayus talaga.. :-s

grasyas. it's all in the mind..
you look 20/21 naman daw eh..

[owwwwwkeeeeey.. so what's with that?
so the "age" thing is getting into my nerves na?
huhuhu..]

i wonder if i really look younger as opposed to my age..
but why do i really bother anyway?
hmmmm.. 3 years to go.. and my years are off from the calendar.
waaaaaaaaaaaaaah! =((

Lies & Deception

KUNG AKO SA INYO, STOP MAKING UP YOUR STORIES AND BREAK OFF FROM LYING TO ME. YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH OF THE TRUTH I HOLD EVEN BEFORE I ASK YOU ABOUT IT. I AM NOT SOMEONE YOU COULD EASILY FOOL AROUND. I WILL SURELY GET YOU SOON. - GRACE

bat nga ba sari-sari store?

wang ko. di ko din alam.
yun lang naisip ko kasi i want to have a public blog.
most of my blogs are private.
my innermost thoughts and emotions are only for myself to hear.
nobody could have a peek on what's happening with me and myself.
eh since, sometimes i wanted to have others a meager view on what's happening to me, i suddenly felt like creating a public blog. and here it is! Grasyas' Sari-Sari store. O ha? Super creative ang title di ba? Hahahaha! :P

minsan kasi. gusto ko lang magsulat ng kat ano.
lalo na pag galit ako at sobrang lungkot.
or sobrang saya! pede din.
pero madalas akong mag-blog pag to the nth level ang inis ko or sobra akong nalulungkot at nasasaktan.
ganon. tas wala naman akong mapagsabihan.
actually, di ko naman ugali na, na magkwento pa sa iba.
yoko lang. di ko lang feel magkwento sa kanila.
tama ng akin na lang.

pero lam mo dati. di ako ganito.
makwento ako sa mga bagay-bagay.
ma-share ako.
pero, wang ko nga ba. bat nawalan nko gana mag-share sa iba na.
parang feeling ko i'm making myself vulnerable pag inexpose ko sa kanila si ako.
ganon.
haaaaaay..
nu kayang nangyayari na sa kin noh?

o tingnan mo yan. di ko na alam mga pinagsasabi ko.
tumigil pa ko saglit kung ano nga ba ang nilagay kong title for this entry.
ang title pala ay "bat nga ba sari-sari store?"
nasagot ko naman di ba?
tas ngayon ang pinagsasabi ko na, "bat nga ba ako ganito?"
wahahaha!
adik talaga..

yun din pala isang dahilan bat "sari-sari store"
kasiii... free flow of thoughts..
kung anong naiisip at nararamdaman ko, yun nisusulat ko.
kaya cguro minsan kahit ang title eh tungkol sa mansanas.
puedeng sa kadulu-duluhan ang sinasabi ko na eh tungkol ke boy abunda.
mga ganun ba.

do i make sense?
parang indi noh?

*sigh*
buti na lang nauso ang blogging.
i have an outlet.
[yak. korni. OUTLET. haleeeeer..]


haaaaaay..
panay buntung-hininga na lang.

aga ko nga pala sa opis. as in!
7:05AM! o haaaaaa..

;))

not a good way to start the day

*hohuuuuuuuum...*

Like im sooooo antok talaga..
Can i go back home and have a date again with my bed?
Im so so so sleepy. My ghas!
I slept at around 1am and woke up again at 5am.
Hoooh! Aga. Actually, 5am is an hour late of my set waking schedule.
I was supposed to rise at 4am to accommodate all my activities.
Ayan tuloy. Di ako nakapagluto for my baon today.
Ang buhok ko para na namang basahan. Indi na-blow-dry.
I forgot to drink my supplements.
Nakalimutan ko ang hairpins ko para maitaas ko buhok ko.
Haaaaay.. Naman, naman ever..
At yan ay para lamang sa umabot sa oras mamaya para sa pagkuha ng clearance. :-s
Pero nakarating naman ako sa opis ng 7:05 A.M. ( :D )
Not bad. Hihi.. ^_^
I am bound to leave this afternoon at 2PM for a meeting in Ortigas.
Tas punta na para kunin ang clearance sa dati kong kumpanya.
Pssssss.. Wang ko nga ba.. Lahat ng may kaugnayan sa mga yon.
Pahirap. Pahirap sa buhay.
Kakainis! Naiinis ako!
As in. Naiinis talaga ko.