Mind (he) vs. Heart (she)

Hmm.. Kanina while I was riding the FX, may naisip ako bigla. [La na kasi ko binabasa na book eh kaya nagkakaron tuloy ako time mag-isip. Tsk.] Anyways.. So yun nga, may naisip ako bigla. La lang. Hilig kasi ako magtanong. Kaya pati sarili ko di nakaligtas sa mga sarili kong tanong. Haha! Adik..

Eh di yun nga. Bigla ako may naisip. Mejo seryoso to ha? Hawak na sa upuan. Hehe..

I was just thinking, it's really easy to wish for someone to be happy when you're also happy yourself. No sweat! You could simply say with a smile that you wish that person to be joyful.

But what if, that person's happiness would mean that you will be sourful and be left alone in the end? What if, he's mainly the chief source of your happiness at the moment and as circumstances demand, he needs to go? Could you still genuinely say to him that you wish him happiness eventhough speaking each letter of the word is like shooting arrows pegging deep thru your heart? Could you still utter the words? Sincerely?

Sabi sa inyo, malalim to eh. HEBIGAT. lol!
Biruin mo yon? Naisip ko yan sa FX?? Hahaha!
Adik.

So to continue..

Well, i did try to answer my own question to my bored self kanina.
My MIND tells me that it will take a lot of courage, discipline, maturity and self-sacrifice to do that. It is not impossible, but it will definitely be difficult.

My HEART tells me, that it is so near to impossible to give up someone you have learned to adore and trust for quite a while.

As always, it's a battle between your insightful brain and your freakingly wild and adventurous heart.

Most of the time, I am a mind-over-heart person. My brain rules my emotions. But I do have my lapses whenever my heart plays tricks on me. You might ask: "How does your heart deceives/tricks you?"

To answer that, I'll give one example. My brain knows most of what I needed to do in different situations or conflicts. My brain has been fed with so much knowledge from the Bible since I was 5. My brain is mature, insightful and very understanding on most part of my life. It always has a control and very restrictive on how my heart handles things. But then again, when my heart feels that my brain is winning. She'll start to play her game. How does she play? It's like this..

My heart is very well aware that my brain is most of the time correct (hmmm.. i leave at least 20% error for that). Sometimes, my heart obeys what my brain tells her to do. But MOST OF THE TIME, she rebels to what it says. So what she usually does is this -- she taps every soft side of my brain and from there she manipulates its decision.

She touches the soft side such as compassion, sympathy and the brain, being overwhelmed by such kind but strong emotions are eventually being clouded on its reasonings. Then if my brain's not strong enough to resist the "seduction" played by my heart, then that's when he will give in to what she wanted. He will let her have what she wants. But thru out all those time of being lax to her, he never stopped telling her to stop what she is doing. If my brain won't coerce my heart to stop, she will continue doing things which is very dangerous and even lethal to me, their rightful owner.

My brain must not get used to what my heart is doing. Because once he get used to it, he will accept her standards and her immature reasons on doing things.

The brain is always mindful on others. The heart is most of the time selfish and inconsiderate. Always wanting HER happiness, stealing other's joy and grace...

O ha? Sa biyahe lang yan kanina.
Hahahaha!

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