Mind (he) vs. Heart (she)

Hmm.. Kanina while I was riding the FX, may naisip ako bigla. [La na kasi ko binabasa na book eh kaya nagkakaron tuloy ako time mag-isip. Tsk.] Anyways.. So yun nga, may naisip ako bigla. La lang. Hilig kasi ako magtanong. Kaya pati sarili ko di nakaligtas sa mga sarili kong tanong. Haha! Adik..

Eh di yun nga. Bigla ako may naisip. Mejo seryoso to ha? Hawak na sa upuan. Hehe..

I was just thinking, it's really easy to wish for someone to be happy when you're also happy yourself. No sweat! You could simply say with a smile that you wish that person to be joyful.

But what if, that person's happiness would mean that you will be sourful and be left alone in the end? What if, he's mainly the chief source of your happiness at the moment and as circumstances demand, he needs to go? Could you still genuinely say to him that you wish him happiness eventhough speaking each letter of the word is like shooting arrows pegging deep thru your heart? Could you still utter the words? Sincerely?

Sabi sa inyo, malalim to eh. HEBIGAT. lol!
Biruin mo yon? Naisip ko yan sa FX?? Hahaha!
Adik.

So to continue..

Well, i did try to answer my own question to my bored self kanina.
My MIND tells me that it will take a lot of courage, discipline, maturity and self-sacrifice to do that. It is not impossible, but it will definitely be difficult.

My HEART tells me, that it is so near to impossible to give up someone you have learned to adore and trust for quite a while.

As always, it's a battle between your insightful brain and your freakingly wild and adventurous heart.

Most of the time, I am a mind-over-heart person. My brain rules my emotions. But I do have my lapses whenever my heart plays tricks on me. You might ask: "How does your heart deceives/tricks you?"

To answer that, I'll give one example. My brain knows most of what I needed to do in different situations or conflicts. My brain has been fed with so much knowledge from the Bible since I was 5. My brain is mature, insightful and very understanding on most part of my life. It always has a control and very restrictive on how my heart handles things. But then again, when my heart feels that my brain is winning. She'll start to play her game. How does she play? It's like this..

My heart is very well aware that my brain is most of the time correct (hmmm.. i leave at least 20% error for that). Sometimes, my heart obeys what my brain tells her to do. But MOST OF THE TIME, she rebels to what it says. So what she usually does is this -- she taps every soft side of my brain and from there she manipulates its decision.

She touches the soft side such as compassion, sympathy and the brain, being overwhelmed by such kind but strong emotions are eventually being clouded on its reasonings. Then if my brain's not strong enough to resist the "seduction" played by my heart, then that's when he will give in to what she wanted. He will let her have what she wants. But thru out all those time of being lax to her, he never stopped telling her to stop what she is doing. If my brain won't coerce my heart to stop, she will continue doing things which is very dangerous and even lethal to me, their rightful owner.

My brain must not get used to what my heart is doing. Because once he get used to it, he will accept her standards and her immature reasons on doing things.

The brain is always mindful on others. The heart is most of the time selfish and inconsiderate. Always wanting HER happiness, stealing other's joy and grace...

O ha? Sa biyahe lang yan kanina.
Hahahaha!

-end-

Twilight's Premiere Night! ^_^

Hello!!!! ^_^

Finally! We're done with the movie!!!
But we're not over Edward yet. Not now.
Not in the near future! Haha!

Movie's fine, actually. [if you haven't read the book yet. hihi.. ;)) ]

To rate it from 1-10, 10 being the highest? I'll give it a 6. :)

Hmmm.. Kristen Stewart is perfect for BELLA's role, physically speaking, and she did well for the most part, really acting as Bella Swan as vividly described in the book. That's how I imagined her while I was reading Twilight. Galing!

Pero my ghas! She doesn't know how to shed tears when she needs to cry.. :s All she did was to make piga of luha sa kaniyang mga mata by blinking fast.. Yung parang napuwing? Ganon. Am baduy noh? Maaaaan.. Ang kornik tuloy nung mga scenes na dapat nakakaiyak tas tong si Kristen, di man mapaiyak.. Tsk, tsk.. Ganda pa naman nia. :D TORN OP. Haha! Joke. :p

Then there's Edward Pattinson as EDWARD CULLEN. Yiheeeee! He certainly has guapo moments in the movie but has kornik/panget angles as well. Pag 3/4 lang ang pag side view niya, am flat ng muka!!!! Parang lalagyanan ng plantsa. Ba yun.

Pero men, ang guapo when he smiles! Nuknukan! *wink, wink* Shuckerbelle talaga.. KILLER SMILE! or "crooked smile" as repeatedly described by Meyer in the Saga series. Hihi.. ;)) Haaaay.. a smile you would die for to see in real life. *sigh*

"Guapo mo Edward!!! Pag kangiti! PRAMIS. Alabyu! (lol)"

Though, i think, somebody could have done the role better. Robert just had that crooked smile that Edward Cullen has. He got it so perfect. :) As in sooo perfect. :)

Anyways.. back to the movie.. So yun. Edward's fine, Bella's fine.. CARLISLE! is sooooo guapo also! And the actor did justice to the role! ^_^ Kras ko din siya. :D According to Jacob in Eclipse, Si "Dr. Fangs." BWAHAHAHA! I enjoy Jacob's sarcasm. He could always make me laugh with his hirits and lait. Hehehehe.. Pero hanggang dun lang. Nothing more, nothing less. Edward pa din! Hehe.. :p

ESME's so beautiful as described in the book and very motherly.

EMETTE is fine also. Perfect as per book's description.

JASPER and ALICE as well, did well on their roles. The actress who plays Alice was really graceful on her acts specially during the baseball game. Alice na alice talaga.

But ROSALIE? I got a bit disappointed on the director or producer's choice for that one character. In the book, she was being described as having matchless beauty. Sexy, alluring, truly enticing. Pero yung asa movie. Nuknukan ng lapad ng balakang. Tabachoy. Nu kaya yon. At di siya kagandahan! I even don't find her sexy.. Bat naman kaya yon ang gumanap??! Ok pa si Eva Mendez cguro. Yan. Mga ganyang level ng beauty ang na-imagine ko kay Rosalie. O kaya si Grace Lapis. Mga ganyang tipo. HAHAHAHAHAH! :p

Anyways.. So yun.. The movies fine, as I said. But the book is always better. :)
Looking forward for the rest of the series in the big screen! ^_^

P.S. Photo pala namin yun ni Raech while waiting in the line. Habaaaaaa ng pila. Buti na lang maaga kame. Mejo asa harap kami ng Pila. Yung dulo ng pila by the way, umabot sa National Bookstore sa ground floor ng Megamall ang cinema asa 3/F. Joooooke.. Hehe.. Basta the line was long. As in loooooooooooooong..

P.S. Part 2: Nasa Breaking Dawn na pala si ako. Lapit nko sa wedding and vampire moment ni Bella! ^_^ Soooo excited! ^_^

I am Bella Swan

Your Result

Bella Swan

You are Bella Swan, the apple of Edward's eye. You are very private, clumsy, sweet, and funny. You have a wonderful ability to accept people for what they are. You have an amazing capacity to love, even though you can be too hard on yourself.

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Personal Note: I am currently on the third book, Eclipse, but while I was reading half of the second, New Moon, I did realize that I have lots of similarities with Bella Swan, not on personality and character, but on our experiences and how we dealt with the difficult situations, particularly the scrutiating pain of being left alone at the end. They are amazingly almost perfectly similar. I will get into details about this in a separate blog.

In the meantime, that's my quiz result for Twilight. Though I'd really hope I'd be Edward. Hehehehe.. :D I like his character so much. Witty & smart, careful, romantic, caring, loving, protective, etc.

Conquering Greenhills.. :D

I was with Wilma and Francois this morning and we were out to Greenhills looking for a similar Rolex, Francois has in his arms. He said, he wanted to use it instead of the original so it won't easily wear out. [ By the way, his Rolex watch cost him more or less, $10,000 and if converted into peso, that's half a million! :o ] Anyways.. So we were there. Stalking on each of the interesting booth that we could find. We at least, checked on three (3) stores.

The tindera of the second store got a bit disappointed that we did not buy her watches after she made efforts of showing us all her rolex watches. Hahaha! She even gave us a low price. But she didn't have the exact model Francois had. What could we do about that? Buti na lang di ako hayblad kanina, I could have make hila her ngusong mahaba!!!! Psssss.. What an ale.. Pakain ko sa kaniya relo niya eh.. Ngusuan ba daw kami??!! Leeeeer..

Anyways.. So we continue with our search for the watch.. And we came to one booth (this time with a bading na tindero). Oh my ghas! He's really a seller! Did try so hard to sell his products in english. As in.. "Wow pareeeee.. Engliiiiishhhh.." Kat nahihirapan siya, he did try. Well kudos for him! ^_^

Then here's my part.. I asked him how much is he selling the watches Francois has picked. He said, "Ma'm, usually P2,500.00 po yan, ibigay ko po sa inyo ng P2,000.00.." Then I gave him a darting look which says "Oh no, you can't fool me around with this.." He was slightly abacked with my quick stare, then I finally said "Hindi namin siya kukuhanin for that price. That's too much! Somebody's offering us the same items for a much, much lower price." Then I stopped waiting for him to respond and make a new offer, but he just kept silent for a while then almost said in a whisper, "Yun po talaga ang presyo namin sa Rolex, Ma'm." Then I said with a heavy stare on his now inquiring eyes, "You give this to me at P900, we'll take two." He was abacked, went pale, few seconds passed, then he gave in, he gave the watches at P900 each. O ha? So Francois got his watches at P1,800.00. He saved P3,200.00! And that's 64% of the proposed price.

Hihi! Bargaining is fun isn't it? ^_^

Then Francois asked about what happened because he did not understand a single word from our conversation. :D I just asked him to give P1,8k and he said "Ok." So, while I was telling him the story while we walk again, he said: "Wow! You are amazing! How did you do that?! Though, I did notice he went pale during your conversation with him but I didn't know you bargained with so low a price that's why his blood drained from his body!" And I was laughing with his comments. Then he jokingly said: "You know, you're a dangerous person. I must not come anywhere near you. You're a people-reader!" Though, I really didn't exactly understand why he used the term "people-reader" in connection with my bargaining powers.. Well anyway, at the last, he said: "You should always come with me when I shop. You'll be very helpful. I'm sure about that."

Hehe.. So there. I got another fan for my bargaining skills! Hahaha! :p

And because he enjoyed shopping that morning, and he liked his Sizzling Kangkong very much at Gerry's Grill, he did pay for our lunch. We were supposed to be the ones to settle that, since he's the client, he's the guest, but he did insist. He didn't even wait for the staff to come over. He approached one of them and asked for the receipt just to dim our chances of paying the meal.

Soooo.. it ends up well. He's happy and we're vibrant knowing that we were able to help him that morning! ^_^

^_^

furious

I'M INFURIATING AGAIN! >.<

listahan ng papa-check-up

-boobs
-mata
-why am i suka suka palagi?
-why am i hilo-hilo palagi?

yaaaan.. katakut. :s

"my vision's failing"

grabeeee..
bat ba dami, dami, dami ko ng nararamdaman sa katawan ko.. huhu
di na siado sumasakit ang bato ko. minsan na lang pag di ako umiinom ng tubig. :D
tas yung boobs ko, sumasakit sia ever.
pero saka ko na papa-check. la pa ko pampa-check-up.
mahal magpa-duktor ngayon eh.
tas lately, lagi pa ko nasusuka. at nahihilo. my ghas!
tas yung paningin ko, lumalabo.
kakabasa ko ata to ng libro kahit madilim sa jeep.
dami ko ng gusto patingnan.
kaso yaku naman sa kung san-san lang na clinic.
kakatakut. baka kung mapano pa ko.
dami pa naman namamatay ngayon dahil sa kapabayaan ng mga duktor.
eh di dun na ko sa "mejo" sigurado magpatingin.
i'm choosing between makati med or medical city sa ortigas eh.
pero most likely sa medical city na lang.
naging kumportable na ko sa ospital na un eh.
though di ko alam kung magkano ang consultation don.
kasi the last time i went there, covered ng insurance un.
eh di pa naman ako regular sa trabaho ko ngayon. kaya la pa ko medical insurance.
kaya kung papa-check-up ako, sariling gastos.
eh tulad nga ng sabi ko, gusto ko sa mejo ok, ok na ospital na.
health ko na kaya yon.
di ako mamba bargain sa kalusugan ko noh.
eh pano kaya kung sabihin may cancer ako sa boobs??!! :o
shuuuuucks..
may lump kasi akong nakakakapa eh.. huhuhu
kaya natatakot din ako.. :(
hmmm.. basta pag nakuha ko yung backpay ko sa dati kong kumpanya.
papacheck-up ako.
eh mukang imposible naman makuha na yung backpay? huhuhu..
kaya nahahayblad ako sa mga yon eh. eveeeeeeeeeer!
tagal magbayad! my ghas!
kaya di umasenso ang buhay buhay. tsk.
nways..
so yun.
tumatanda na talaga ko..
dami ko na nararamdaman sa katawan.

:(

Twilight Premiere Ticket! ^_^

o haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa? :D



Soooooooooooooo excited! Promise!
That's my ticket for the premiere night of Twilight! Hihi..
Sensiya na. Tabinge. Kunyari style yun ng blog ko. Slanting images. Hehe.. :p
Nyways.. So yan yun.
Our gateway to see Edward Cullen live in action.
Yiheeee! ^_^
Can't wait, can't wait!

sari-sari -> blogra

o yan.
iba na title ng public blog ko.
nako-kornihan ako sa sari-sari store eh..
though "creative" talaga sia pakinggan, kornik lang ever. hahaha!
pina-nindigan talaga ang pagiging creative nung sari-sari eh noh?! hahaha! =))
adik.

so yun.
blogracious na sia ngayon.
o ha? unique di ba?
haha! i'm so like sounding so pathetic here. =))

combination of characters pa yan.
with letters. and symbols. and numbers. and everything. :D
at eto ang word history niyan:

blog + gracious (from grace siempered!)

ang uniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiique ever! =))
pinaghirapan ang blog title. =))
hooh~! babaliw na ata ako. =))
my ghas. =))

Bl0gR@ci0us?

=))

papaya + peanut butter

sakit ng tiyan ko!!!! =((
huhuhuhu..
pero di ako nae-ebs.
humihilab siya.
kumain kasi ako ng:

papaya + peanut butter + potato bread

ayun pagbalik ko dito sa area ko sakit na tiyan ko!
huhuhuhu.. =((
hapdi-hapdi ever. =((

di man ako nae-ebs.
sumakit lang tiyan ko. =((

=((

TWILIGHT

Haaaay..
I can't wait!
I really can't wait!!!!
Raech and I will be watching it's premiere here in the Philippines on the 25th at Megamall Cinema at 8:00 P.M.

Thanks to Raech's connections, we were able to get premiere tickets.
The premiere's by invitation only. Hehehehe..
But we got two (2)! Hihi.. ^_^

Soooo excited!
I can't wait to see Edward live in action! ^_^
I really do hope Robert Pattinson will do justice on the role. :-/


Here's Robert Pattinson portrayed as Edward Cullen in the movie "Twilight."
He surely looks a real vampire on that shot with his pale white skin, bloody red lips plus his golden honey eyes.. Parang ang lamig nga niya tingnan ano? Brrrr..

Im prepared to be swept away by his highly irresistable, truly hypnotical character. Hehehe..

I'm meeting you soon, Edward.
I'm meeting you soon.. :D

keyk

At 12:31 PM last Friday, Nov 14, while I was with Julius and Nery Encia (first time I met this guy, well to my surprise he's also an ex-GSI-er. Could you believe that? What a small world indeed! Really, as in! ^_^)

Well, anyways.. So yun. While I was with them. I received a text message from a friend:

leggerz (12:31): grace, nasan ka?
me (12:33): Tosh. Y?
leggerz (12:43): are you in a meeting?
me (12:45): Indi. Casual meet up lng wd old friends. Batit?
leggerz (12:45): Ok. Patapos na b kyo?
me (12:47): Kapapasok lng e. Grabe lmst 1hr nag-intay. Bkt nga? Nina pkng bkit ng bkit e. Ah, ah to. Wats up?
leggerz (12:48): great! Stay put.
me (12:50): Waaaah! Baket?
leggerz (12:50): san kyo nakaupo?
me (12:52) : Sa upuan? Hehe..

At exactly 12:56 , Leggerz called asking where we are seated and in a few minutes he was there bringing in a beautiful cake from Cheesecake, Etc.. And I was soooo surprised, as in! I didn't expect anybody will give me a gift since I don't celebrate birthdays at all.

Here's a photo of his gift.


How nice isn't it? Though, he knows our stand on birthdays, he never fails to forget the suppose-to-be special days of his friends. Sweet of him. :)

Though, I did hope he didn't bother of giving me anything.
But still, thanks. I did appreciate it.
It's beautiful. :)

Yummy, yummy cake! Fave part? The sole red shiny cherry and the Gardie-kun. (ganda ng lettering e) Hehe..

Many. many thaaaaanks! ^_^

waaaaaah!

i turned a year older today..
ayus talaga.. :-s

grasyas. it's all in the mind..
you look 20/21 naman daw eh..

[owwwwwkeeeeey.. so what's with that?
so the "age" thing is getting into my nerves na?
huhuhu..]

i wonder if i really look younger as opposed to my age..
but why do i really bother anyway?
hmmmm.. 3 years to go.. and my years are off from the calendar.
waaaaaaaaaaaaaah! =((

Lies & Deception

KUNG AKO SA INYO, STOP MAKING UP YOUR STORIES AND BREAK OFF FROM LYING TO ME. YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH OF THE TRUTH I HOLD EVEN BEFORE I ASK YOU ABOUT IT. I AM NOT SOMEONE YOU COULD EASILY FOOL AROUND. I WILL SURELY GET YOU SOON. - GRACE

bat nga ba sari-sari store?

wang ko. di ko din alam.
yun lang naisip ko kasi i want to have a public blog.
most of my blogs are private.
my innermost thoughts and emotions are only for myself to hear.
nobody could have a peek on what's happening with me and myself.
eh since, sometimes i wanted to have others a meager view on what's happening to me, i suddenly felt like creating a public blog. and here it is! Grasyas' Sari-Sari store. O ha? Super creative ang title di ba? Hahahaha! :P

minsan kasi. gusto ko lang magsulat ng kat ano.
lalo na pag galit ako at sobrang lungkot.
or sobrang saya! pede din.
pero madalas akong mag-blog pag to the nth level ang inis ko or sobra akong nalulungkot at nasasaktan.
ganon. tas wala naman akong mapagsabihan.
actually, di ko naman ugali na, na magkwento pa sa iba.
yoko lang. di ko lang feel magkwento sa kanila.
tama ng akin na lang.

pero lam mo dati. di ako ganito.
makwento ako sa mga bagay-bagay.
ma-share ako.
pero, wang ko nga ba. bat nawalan nko gana mag-share sa iba na.
parang feeling ko i'm making myself vulnerable pag inexpose ko sa kanila si ako.
ganon.
haaaaaay..
nu kayang nangyayari na sa kin noh?

o tingnan mo yan. di ko na alam mga pinagsasabi ko.
tumigil pa ko saglit kung ano nga ba ang nilagay kong title for this entry.
ang title pala ay "bat nga ba sari-sari store?"
nasagot ko naman di ba?
tas ngayon ang pinagsasabi ko na, "bat nga ba ako ganito?"
wahahaha!
adik talaga..

yun din pala isang dahilan bat "sari-sari store"
kasiii... free flow of thoughts..
kung anong naiisip at nararamdaman ko, yun nisusulat ko.
kaya cguro minsan kahit ang title eh tungkol sa mansanas.
puedeng sa kadulu-duluhan ang sinasabi ko na eh tungkol ke boy abunda.
mga ganun ba.

do i make sense?
parang indi noh?

*sigh*
buti na lang nauso ang blogging.
i have an outlet.
[yak. korni. OUTLET. haleeeeer..]


haaaaaay..
panay buntung-hininga na lang.

aga ko nga pala sa opis. as in!
7:05AM! o haaaaaa..

;))

not a good way to start the day

*hohuuuuuuuum...*

Like im sooooo antok talaga..
Can i go back home and have a date again with my bed?
Im so so so sleepy. My ghas!
I slept at around 1am and woke up again at 5am.
Hoooh! Aga. Actually, 5am is an hour late of my set waking schedule.
I was supposed to rise at 4am to accommodate all my activities.
Ayan tuloy. Di ako nakapagluto for my baon today.
Ang buhok ko para na namang basahan. Indi na-blow-dry.
I forgot to drink my supplements.
Nakalimutan ko ang hairpins ko para maitaas ko buhok ko.
Haaaaay.. Naman, naman ever..
At yan ay para lamang sa umabot sa oras mamaya para sa pagkuha ng clearance. :-s
Pero nakarating naman ako sa opis ng 7:05 A.M. ( :D )
Not bad. Hihi.. ^_^
I am bound to leave this afternoon at 2PM for a meeting in Ortigas.
Tas punta na para kunin ang clearance sa dati kong kumpanya.
Pssssss.. Wang ko nga ba.. Lahat ng may kaugnayan sa mga yon.
Pahirap. Pahirap sa buhay.
Kakainis! Naiinis ako!
As in. Naiinis talaga ko.