raymart santiago

nakita ko siya sa baba kanina
may bitbit na plywood.
hahahaha!

inde.
kamuka lang.
ganun pala itsura ni raymart pag mejo humaba ng konte yung baba niya.
hahahaha!

=))

wala akong masabi

bakit kaya?
i wonder..

:-?

is it the end of my "daldal" moments?
hehehe..

eh kasi napansin ko, indi na ko siado makwento din kahit kanino.
hinahayaan ko na lang yung kausap ko ang magdaldal.
tas taga tanong na lang ako.
ganun.

minsan naman, di nko makaisip ng sasabihin.
eh usually di naman ako nauubusan ng sasabihin.
may PAUSE na sa conversation.
unlike before na, patong patong na mga salita sa bibig ko..
eh ngayon, mejo nauubusan na ata ako ng sasabihin.
hehehe..

bat kaya ano?
tsk tsk..

parang bigla akong N.A.T.A.M.E.M.E.
hehe

:D

halimaw

e di nagse-search ako about braces.

*search, search*
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*search, search*
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tas may nakita akong brief article about braces na may dental pictures.
aba naman! may ganito palang ngipen?

ano kaya yon?
pag ganyan naman ipen ko e..
papabaklas ko na lahat!
it's not worth saving.
haler!

P.S. excuse me.. tapos na ko sa mga tasks ko for today. kaya wag kang eps-eps. hehehe.. :p

aaaaargh!

I WANTED TO SCREAM!
TODONG SCREAM!!!
YUNG SIGAW NA SOBRANG LAKAS!!!
PARA MAILABAS KO LAHAT!!!
THEN I WANTED TO CRY!!!
CRY AS MUCH AS I CAN!!!
TO END ALL THIS.

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ENOUGH NA PLEASE.
ENOUGH NA..

*sob*

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dami dami

dami dami kong gustong sabihin.
halo-halo sa utakis ko.
di ko maisulat sa sobrang gulo.
hooh! naman.

:-s

a letter to myself

ganito ha?
ganito, grace.
ganito kasi yan e.
umayos ka na...

full text here.

hehehe.. :D

thrashing pain

“..i struggled to keep the screams and thrashing locked up inside my body, where they couldn’t hurt anyone else.”- Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn

For the full text, CLICK HERE.

wehehe..
kala niyo ha. :p

Smile Like Mona Lisa

Oh, I carry a photograph
girl of the way you used to be
love looking back at me, now it's just a memory
you were all laughter then
and you were my light when it was dark
how did we lose our way, how did we fall apart
'cause something in our kisses
said love would never end
and deep down you still feel it too
but you won't let me in

so when you smile like mona lisa
my heart falls to pieces
('cause) smiling just can't hide
all the sadness in your eyes
if I could only hold you
love you like I used to
but girl what can I do
when you smile like mona lisa

the way that I held you close
the way that you whispered my name
we made a work of art
know there's just an empty frame

all we had
baby we could have again
and deep down you still feel it too
but you won't let me in

so when you smile like mona lisa
my heart falls to pieces
('cause) smiling just can't hide
all the sadness in your eyes
if I could only hold you
love you like I used to
but girl what can I do
when you smile like mona lisa

so when you smile like mona lisa
my heart falls to pieces
('cause) smiling just can't hide
all the sadness in your eyes
if I could only hold you
love you like I used to
but girl what can I do
when you smile like mona lisa

I carry a photograph
girl of the way you used to be...

jepoy

o ha?
espesyal ka!
hahaha!

humingi kasi ako ng picture kay jejep.
tas naisip ko na gawan sia ng entry.
kasi kahit na barubal yan sa kin palagi,
lagi naman niya ko nipapatawa.
tsaka di nia ko nikakalimut.
asa canada na kasi sia. nagpapaputi. (hahahaha! :)
joke lang. :D

pero tingnan niyo picture niya, namumula-mula na.
o haaaaa..
pero wag kayo! in-adobe nia yan!!
runong yang mag adobe eh.
kala mo jep ha.
di pa ko convince na namumula ka na talaga! hahaha! :p

pag-uwi mo dito, patikimin mo naman kami ng hirap at pawis mo sa pagbale-balentong sa trabaho mo. [ ano ka sirkero? =)) ]
indi hirap at pawis na literal ang sinasabi ko ha! bah.
alam mo na.. perfume. gadgets. chocolates.
mga ganun ba. hehe.. :D
pagbalik mo dito after 10 years magfu food trip ulit tayo. :D
ha? ha?
baka naman di ka na nakakakilala pagbalik mo.
ngungudngod kita sa putik para bumalik ang alaala mo.
sige ka. :p

moody ka pa din ba?
ok ngayon, nakasimangot na maya.
or na-plantsa na nguso mo ng tuluyan? hehe..

o sia. cge. ingat ka na lang jan palagi ha?
stay happy and safe always! :)

miss you jep-jep! :)

view of life..

..sa traysikel.

Kala niyo kung ano ha. hahaha! :p
Eto yung view ng buhay na sinasabi ko pag asa tricycle ka. :D
Ayos di ba?

"Red Rider" ang tawag ko jan eh. (parang Mask rider, ganon. hahaha! :p)
Kasi usually, green ang kulay ng tricycle duon sa Taguig.
Tas baligtaran yung mga upuan, pito ang puedeng sumakay.
Eto, inde. Lima lang talaga.
Tsaka ito, may bintana.
La kasing salamin yung harap.
Haha! :))

Babaw ko noh?
La lang.
Natawa lang ako don.
Hehehe..

O siya. Yan na yun.
Ganyan ang itsura ng mundo pag asa traysikel ka. :D

Malamig. Mahangin. Tahimik. Mabilis. Maingay.

:)

nakakuha akong increase!! yahuu!!

Wooow! As in wow!
Ang laki ng nadagdag sa take home pay ko after ko ma-regular!!!
Yahuuuu! Ang saya, saya!!!

P22.72!!!!

=))

P.S. Maniwala ka na! Yan lang talaga nadagdag. Ilang sachet ng shampoo din yan. Bah. =)) :p

time will tell

If you are in doubt of things.
If you wanted to know the truth.
If you wanted to know the true motives of people’s actions.
If you wanted to see the real person behind their pretty “masked” faces.
Allow time to pass then you’ll have all your answers.

If you are patient enough to wait for the truth, then allow time to give them to you.
Thru time, you’ll understand why these things are happening.

Why things ended?
Why are things always seems hard for you?
Why do you have to experience all these?
Why do always get your heart broken?
Why did you make stupid mistakes?
Who is this person really?
What does he really want from you?
What are his real motives? Etc. Etc.

Let time pass, and most of your questions will be answered.
Just wait for the right time, then you’ll fully understand why you are currently experiencing all these.
According to the Bible, there is an appointed time for every affairs under the heaven. (Ecclesiastes 3:1)

Just be patient. And you’ll know for yourself who are REAL, who are the USERS, who are the HYPROCRITES, who are CUNNING, who are DISHONEST, who are UNTRUTHFUL.
You’ll know in time.

If ever you’ll realize that you have been fooled and deceived, remember “God sees everything.” Nothing escapes his “wandering eyes.”
And every one of us will be accountable for EACH of our action.

Do remember that. :)
Every one of us is accountable to God.
So if you’ve been deceived, don’t worry, as God said “..vengeance is mine.”

laki ng tiyan ko!!!

as innnn!!!!!
laki ng tiyan ko!!!
huhuhuhu..
ang takaw ko kasi eh.
research nga ko ng exercise na puede sa tiyan.
ah, ah.
am bundat ko eh. :-s
am panget.
para akong butete ever.
yak.

>_<

sana

lam mo, may sasabihin ako.
kahit anong pilit ko na maging normal ulet at kalimutan ang mga bagay bagay, andun pa din sia. huhuhuhu..
am bigat bigat pa din.. :(
bakit ganun? pero i live my life normally naman.
i do things i normally do.
my life didn't stop there. tinuloy ko buhay ko.
and i'm trying to make a new one, starting to live a new one.
i have new activities. i go out more with friends. preaching. dalo. badminton. etc.
pero iba. there's a hole in me talaga.
there is an empty space.
parang may kulang.
pero cguro sa una lang to.
dahil may nakasanayan akong buhay.
*sigh*

sana maging ok na ang mga bagay bagay.
sana makalimutan ko na.
sana di ko na maramdaman ang bigat ng nakaraan.

sana. sana. sana.

am mahal na pala ng pandesal??!!

;-o

;-o

;-o

Grabe ha! Inintroduce ako ni Raech sa bagong bilihan ng meryenda dun sa may malayo. :D
Basta bakery sia. Pero may tindang siomai, goto, arrozcaldo, at mga "elitistang" tinapay.

OO. Elitista sila. Sobrang mahal nila ha!!!
Grabeee.. Anim na piso bawat isa??!! :o
My ghas!

Baka may anti-cancer yung mga tinapay.
O kaya may turok na anti-AIDS or panlaban sa TB.
Am mahal eh.

Pero ayos naman ang lasa.
Na-compare ko lang sa tinapay sa LB.
Actually may bakery dun na mejo mahal din ang mga tinapay compared sa mga common na bakery.
P2.50 or P3.00 isa. Pero sobrang malaki na yon tas compact ang mga tinapay. Indi mahangin.
Mas masarap kesa sa kinain namin kanina. :D
Hehehe..
Actually madami naman talagang puedeng kainin sa LB.
Mura na, masarap pa!
Kaya sarap mag food trip doon e! ^_^

Anyways.. So yun.
Ok naman yung sosyalerang tinapay.
Nabusog naman ako.
Di lang ako natutuwa sa presyo.

Pero yung arrozcaldo nila, masarap din.
P25 pesos.

Haaay.. Mga adventures sa pagkain.
Ang takaw ko talaga lately.
Kahapon sangkatutak kinain ko eh.
Pero nung gabi parang nagugutom pa ko.
I was not like that before.
I only eat during lunchtime for the whole day.
Ngayon, oras oras gutom ako.
Bah. Ano kaya yon. :-s
Kaya ang laki na ng tiyan ko eh.

Tsk tsk tsk.

:-s

araw-araw na pagsubok sa buhay buhay

Ang lamig maligo.
Grabeee.. Sobrang lamig ng beg-tu!
Ah, ah.
Ngali-ngali kong bumili ng heater e.
Brrrrr.. Nakakasakit ng ulo minsan yung sobrang lameg!
Aga ko pa naman maligo. :s
Ang ginagawa ko paa muna.
Mga tatlong sunod-sunod na buhos sa paa.
Tas muka ko, babasain ko.
Tas bigla akong magbubuhos sa katawan.
WAAAAAAAAAAAH!
Ang lameeeeeeeeeeeeeg!!!!
Tumatalon ako para mejo uminit ng konte.
As in todo talon!!!
Lamig naman talaga.
Grabe.
At least sa LB mejo mainit tubig dun eh.
Yung sa unit ni Bam, ang lamig ng tubig.
Brrrrrrr..
Humahapdi kili-kili ko sa lameg.
Hahahaha! =))

traysikel

kanina, nagpicture ako habang kasakay ako sa traysikel. hehehe..
wala lang. papakita ko sa inyo ang view ng buhay pag asa traysikel.
hahahaha!

sa weekend share ko. :D

hmmm..

hirap din pala ano?
no matter how strong your brain is.
no matter how capable you are in controlling it.
you cannot still ignore what your heart feels.
it is still there. lingering inside.
you cannot make yourself numb actually.
so i don't quite believe people who says na "namanhid na ko"
it's not true.
walang taong manhid.
lahat tayo nilalang na may damdamin at pakiramdam.
nasasabi lang nila yon kasi di nila maprocess kung anong nararamdaman talaga nila.
or should i say, they cannot accept what they feel at that moment.
kaya kala nila namamanhid sila. pero ang totoo, di nila alam kung anong mararamdaman talaga nila.
di nila ma-identify.. kelangan ng acceptance at matinding pag-iisip ng mga bagay bagay pag ganyan.

pero it's good to feel that i can control my thoughts.
it somewhat helps me control the damage of negative emotions.
it somewhat limits the pain and hurtings.
though it is there, i can feel it.
but what can i do? but feel them all.
acknowledge them all so i could move on and have a new life.
it will take time for me and i hope i could face everything still with a smile on my face.
i'm trying my best to be rational on things so i could live peacefully.
i just hope things will fall into their proper places.
i hope i could soon move on and leave all these things behind.
if i were to give a score on how i am doing now, 10 being the highest.
I could rate myself 4 or 5.
baba pa noh? why is that?
kasi i can still feel my attachment with my past.
i can still feel the past. it's all here in me still. nararamdaman ko pa din.
i am slowly changing things around me.
but i guess, having a new life is not easy.
there will be new hindrances which could throw killing stabs of pain on me.
i hope and i pray i could do it.
God sees everything. i know that.
He knows all my battles and He knows everything about me.
As long as I have Him, i will not worry anymore.
i accepted that these pains are all for me to bear.
it's part of the consequences of my actions.
But then, what matters most to me now is to make Jehovah God happy.
patuloy kong sasawayin ang sarili ko. and I know He knows that. He sees all my efforts.
i am very grateful to have known Jehovah. He's very trustworthy and loving. :)
i know i must do better, but i can proudly say i can feel i could do it.

i'm positive on things.
always positive on things... :)

Fish Spa

Are you aware that there is such a thing as FISH SPA??
My ghas! When I saw the sign in bold letters saying FISH SPA.
I thought yung mga isda yung nagpapa-spa. Hahaha!
Eh kasi naman asa Oceanarium kame nun.
Malay ko ba kung pati isda ngayon may spa na. Hehe..
So when I saw the booth for the Fish Spa, kita ko may rates.
Ang sabi: P120 for 20mins.
Tas sumilip ako sa loob kung anong nigagawa.
Kita ko may mga tao na nakaupo sa pool tas nakababad mga paa.
Isip ko baka hotspring, parang nagrerelax lang.
Aba'y hinde! There were actually fishes duon sa pool na pinagbabaran nila ng paa!!!
At naguumpukan yung mga isda sa mga paa nila.
Naimagine ko bigla, parang mga piranha na nagngangatngat ng paa nila.
Shuuuuuuuuuucks..
Tas out of curiosity, basa basa ako sa ads nung Fish Spa kung para san ba un.
Sabi nakakarelax daw tas nakakakinis ng balat.
Nung nabasa ko yung nakakakinis ng balat. "O cge, goooo!"
Hahahaha!

So yun, nag-fish spa kame. :D
Hehehe.. Kakakiliti nung una!
As in.
Tas may mga adik na isda na pati sa binte kumakagat.
Bah. Sakit kaya.

Di naman actually sila kumakagat, a more apt term would be NIBBLING.
La man sila matatalas na ipen eh.
Tsaka maliliit lang yung isda noh, indi kasing laki ng tilapia.
Hahahaha! =))

The fish is called Dr. Fish or Nibble Fish.
Scientific Name: Garra Rufa

You could research about it sa web.
May nakita akong picture ng babae, buong katawan nia nilublob niya.
Cguro para kuminis buong katawan nia.
Kasi the fishes nibble on the dead skin cells.
Kay it turns out na re-newed and invigorated ang balat mo.
Pero according to my research, sa ibang bansa sa hotspring sila eh.
Mas masarap sana kung ganon.
Eh yung sa Oceanarium, ang lamig ng tubig.
Kaya kung maghapon ka ng gumagala non, tas magpa fish spa ka eh baliko na paa mo pagkatapos kasi pasmado ka na! Hahaha! =)) :p

Nways.. Basta masaya nung experience.
May picture ako niyon eh tsaka video.
Pero saka ko na upload yun.
Asa bahay files ko eh.

Next time ha?
Para makita niyo pano nila tinanggal mga kalyo sa paa ko.
Bwahahaha! :p

words are easier said than done

for most people this is quite true.
marami akong kakilala na mabilis magbitaw ng salita.
mahilig mangako pero hanggang dun lang yon.
hanggang salita lang.
sooner or later, maraming idadahilan.
kaya as much as possible i don't make promises.
there are people who will ask me: "promise?" "ipangako mo." "
you don't ask people to make a promise. neither force them to make one.
otherwise, there is a 90% chance that it will be broken.
and you also don't easily give a promise.
kasi most promises are meant to be broken. (that's the reality of life in this wicked system of things)
because humans are ever changing and so are the circumstances.

yes, promises are mere words. but should not be taken lightly.
promises bound you to another individual or group of individuals.
once they are broken, it changes how others see you.
they will soon be doubting your words and see if you will ever be truthful.

truth to be told, only promises made by Jehovah God, are ever reliable.
i know all His promises are truthful and i will continually hold on to His words that everything will be alright as long as I continue to obey Him as my Sovereign God and ever Loving Creator.

:)

reflection

I was having breakfast this morning when I saw this song's MTV playing and a phrase from that song caught my attention. Hulaan niyo na lang kung ano sa lyrics. Hehe.. :D

Anyways.. Here is the lyrics.
I wanted to "imbed" an audio clip of this song with this entry pero di ako runong eh.
Hehe.. So lyrics na lang.

- - - - - - - - - - - -
Reflection
By Leah Salonga

Look at me, I will never pass for a perfect bride, or a perfect daughter.
Can it be, I'm not meant to play this part?
Now I see, that if I were truly to be myself, I would break my family's heart..

Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Somehow I cannot hide, who I am though I've tried.
When will my reflection show who I am inside.

When will my reflection show who I am inside...

parang baligtad?

umuwi si tatay from Saudi. siempre nangalikot kaming mga bitbit niya.
may dala siyang camera, ang tatak CASIO.
eh di tawanan, ano ba daw yon? calcu?
tas pagkakita namen, may dala din siang calcu, ang tatak CANON.
bwahahaha!

la lang natawa lang ako.
hehehe.. :D

=))

new scents

i got new scents!!!!
yahuu! ^_^
both are really great scents.
para ngang they are so bango to wear. :D
hehehe..

HOT COUTURE - GIVENCHY
bango niya ever! kinda addictive.

NOTORIOUS - RALPH LAUREN
has an elite and sweet smell. a bit musky but light.



me? happy and bango. hihi. ^_^

The Magic Is Here!

"~everyday, everyday, everyday the magic is here!" bwahaha! so saya! grabe.. those are just some sample shots of our gig last Tuesday, December 30 at Enchanted Kingdom. I'm with Dulce, Lyn, Nadine and Nunan. Grabeeeeee.. Sobrang daming tao!!!! As in! Konti lang nasakyan namin kasi for just one ride, 1-2 hrs ka na maghintay bago ka makasakay. Ganong kadaming tao!! Pero super enjoy. Kahit masama pakiramdam ko, super nag enjoy ako. Kahit basa akong umuwi, saya naman. Hehehe.. :D I will be posting more pictures kapag may kopya na ko. Pero siguro sa Friendster ko na. ^_^ For the meantime, enjoy the photos!

I'll be sharing more pictures soon! ;o)

happiness

i had a reunion this morning with one of my favorite movies of all time, which is "The Deep End of the Ocean" starred by Michelle Pfeifer as Beth Cappadora. i was so happy to find a torrent file of this old movie and believe it or not, i waited for 3 or 4 days, i think, for it to download completely. hehehe.. bagal ng connection eh. :D but my patience paid off. i now have a copy of it! hihi. ^_^

it is a story of a mom who lost her kid when he was still three (3) during a reunion party of her batch. the movie's a heavy drama. struggles of a mom and the family when you lost a love one.

thru that movie, it was AGAIN emphasized to me that if you truly care for someone, if you have sincere, real and warm affection for that person, you will always seek his happiness as apart to yours, as Beth did for her son. even if it entailed her a great deal of pain, she did what she has to do just to see her son happy. she's so willing to gave up her own happiness, for the happiness of her son.

wow! i could imagine how hard it is for beth to give away his son again after losing and missing him for 9-10 years.. tsk tsk tsk..

the first time i watched that movie, i cried when Beth gave his son away again back to the life he's used to. it's not that easy. only with great love can a person do that.

Jehovah God is like that to us.
He gave away his Son for us sinful humans to be saved from death.
He let himself experienced the excruciating pain of seeing His beloved son die just to save the imperfect, weak and unthankful humans.
He love us so dearly and He gave His son away for us to live..
What a great example of His magnificent and unmatched love.

so to end this entry, loving someone could sometime demand that you must give up your own happiness just to see that person happy..

not easy? yes. but it is possible. :)

aging beauties :o

wo-wo-woooow!

i was browsing cosmo site for hairstyles and i saw photos of celebrities during the Emmy's. and my ghaaaaaaaaas! my jaw dropped seeing Brook Shield's photo! :o as in jaw dropped. :o she's soooo old na.. i didn't kinda expect her to be so antique. that's her photo on the right..

also, Teri Hatcher looks old already. see her? the shot on the left.. :s see? they're old na noh?

physical beauty does wear out.
it is best to wear a beautiful personality, which most likely you could wear a lifetime
than focus on your physical beauty which diminish as you age.

people will like you more having great and warm personality than being so pretty and yet so rotten and cunning inside.