love & pain

"Love can melt away the pain no matter how painful it is; but then again I realize that pain can melt away the love, no matter how great love is." - Anonymous

This is sooo true..
But that is only if pain was deliberately caused by the person you loved and cherished.
Other than that, nothing can ever erase true love.
As in NOTHING.

No matter what you do, no matter what you say, no matter what you make yourself believe, true love will always knock on you and will remind you that there is somebody you love before. somebody you cherished. somebody you really treasured.

True love lingers a loooooooong, loooooooong time.
It never fails and is really very hard to forget.
Once in a while, it will resurface and reminds you of that feeling.

But this I'd also like to point out.
Great pain could easily erase everything you feel for a person (at least for my case).
Specially, if it's a breach of trust.

I am always sincere on how i deal with a person.
I seldom lie. I'm very transparent on what i feel. I'm very vocal on what I think.
As much as possible, I make every person feel good about himself.
As much as I can, I make them happy.
I listen to them. I care for them. I laugh with them. I cry with them. I protect them.

But then again, if i learned i have been used, I have been fooled, I have been lied to.
Then that's the end of it. No need for discussion.
We're back to where we are before. Not even friends.
You will just be like anybody else to me.

I rarely take my revenge for I know God always wanted us to do good on others.
And I know He sees everything. And He knows best on what to do on every situation.
I'd rather live my life peacefully and let those bastards reap what they sow.
As long as my conscience is clear, i care less to what they do with their lives.

For me, at a snap of my fingers, it's done.
As much as I can, I give love to the extent, but I can't give it back once gone.
Once I reached my "boiling point" almost nothing can change my mind.
I didn't say, losing somebody like me could have an adverse effect on anyone.
For I am no one. Just Grace. :)
But losing respect from others definitely has a blow to your own personality.
I have this special skill of releasing the true emotions and unmasking the real personality of those around me.

So beware. I am not perfect. I am also a sinner, like all of us are.
But I have the capability to love to the greatest extent possible.
I have the power to understand even the most complicated and hurtful things in life.
But I also have the ability to protect myself from further damage by shutting down my emotions and make myself numb when pricked a million times or even when fatally stab once.

So don't mess with me.
I'm a friend for a friend.

I will not be your worst enemy for I hardly take my revenge.
But I am so sure, you will definitely pay for what you have done (even without me knowing it).

:)

Greatest Man Who Ever Lived

The Watchtower & Bible Tract Society published a book entitled "The Greatest Man Who Ever Lived." (picture shown above)
It was to narrate Jesus earthly life for 3 1/2 years.
As expected, my tears were uncontrollably flowing when I came to chapter 113 onwards.
Jesus Christ suffered terribly for sinful humans to be saved.
As Pontius Pilate noticed, Jesus was so dignified even in the face of death.
Israelites where angrily shouting at him, tortured him to the extreme way possible.
They even chose to release Barnabas, a serial murderer, than to free Jesus.
And Jesus Christ was on the stage, seeing how the people he was trying to save, were all shouting loudly at him to be killed.
Tsk tsk tsk.. I wonder how he felt during that time.
Does his love never waivered? Did he ever felt angry at them?
Imagine those are the people he was trying to save and yet they conspired and did everything for him to be impaled.
Shucks. That was really a great show of love firstly for his Father, Jehovah and for humankind.
I could never imagine and will never fully understand how Jesus and Jehovah suffered for the imperfect humans to be saved.
They really showcased an outstanding example of LOVE.
I was really touched on how Jesus talked to His father.
He always says in his prayer: "As you will, Father.."
No matter what he needs to sacrifice from his part, no matter what he will suffer.
All that is important for him is for the will of his Father to take place.
He completely trust his life to his loving Father who is in heaven.
When he finally breathed his last breath, the heavens became dark and there was a strong earthquake.
Jehovah was really sad seeing his only begotten son, suffered and tortured by mortal humans.
Could you imagine? The two (2) most powerful persona in the whole universe, allow themselves to suffer for us sinful and weak humans to be saved?
How great is that?
You know, that book is really a good book to read and ponder.
That's actually one of the many publications of the Watchtower & Bible Tract Society which could aid us in understanding the BIble and thus help us know the truth and become closer to God.

My next book to read is 2009 Yearbook of Jehovah's Witnesses.
It contains a year-end report of how their preaching work is continuously progressing in every part of the world.
If you are a non-JW reading this entry, please do take the opportunity to learn the truth about God.
Jehovah's Witnesses will not be forever knocking on your doors to help you understand what the Bible really teach.
God has His own timetable on things.
So while it is still possible and while God still allows it, come to know the truth about what's really happening in the world and about the future.
Soon, Jehovah God will finally put an end to Satan's system of things, including those who fail to listen and do His will.
Listen and heed on what God wants us to do before it's too late.
Jehovah's Witnesses are everywhere.
You could always ask us about the Bible and we will all be glad to help you answer your questions about God, life and future.

You could also check our official website at www.watchtower.org

P.S. We will soon be celebrating the Memorial of Jesus death on April 9. Hope you could find the nearest Kingdom Hall in your area. For it the only ocassion which Jesus asked his disciples to observe and remember. This is the most important event in a year for a Jehovah's Witness. Remembering how Jesus offered his own life as a ransom sacrifice for us all. So if you could attend, we're inviting you to visit the nearest Kingdom Hall.